Worth the Fight Prologue

Prologue

I hate feeling like this

I'm so tired of trying to fight this

I'm asleep and all I dream of

Is waking to you

Tell me that you will listen

-Comatose -Skillet

No one ever listens to me. You would think that in all of my seventeen years of life, someone would have actually taken the time to sit and listen to me. For some, yes, but not in my case.

I was full of nonsense; my head filled with pointless dreams and aspirations. I was constantly told that nothing I said or did would ever amount to anything.

That's what every seventeen year old girl wanted to hear right?

I've always wanted to do something with my life that held a strong purpose; even if it was only for one miniscule moment.

As a little girl, I'd dreamed of becoming a princess; you know the works: the fancy gowns, a huge castle, countless balls, and my very own prince charming. I would feed the poor, donate my money to charities, play with the kids of the town ,and be loved by everyone, sleeping soundly at night with a smile upon my face, knowing that I would get to do it all again the next day. I

t was every little girl's dream; her own personal fantasy.

And don't all fairytales have a happy ending?

No? Yes?

Taylor Swift even made a song out of it. Any replies?

I didn't think so.

I used to think that everything that happened in life was a fairytale.

It was all a big wonderful dream full of happiness, where there was no crime, no violence, no shame or hate, just love and hope.

It was all just utter bullshit.

Because of this, I pretty much saw things in black and white; the good and the bad, or the hot and cold. I eventually became so blind that I couldn't see what was actually going on right before my very own eyes, until everything was taken away from me.

Just short of three months ago, when I turned seventeen, I got the shock of my life and I finally began to see things in color.

I soon realized that life seemed to be one big lie;that love was pointless.

The world was deemed horrible; a tactless, dreadful place where hate conquered over love ,violence and crime ruled over the streets, everyone bared shame, and everyone realized that there was no point to even believe in hope.

This was how I saw the world through my eyes ,where by protecting a secret I killed my parents.

I'm Isabella Marie Swan, age seventeen and this is my story of how I killed my parents, the reason I decided to kill myself and the people who tried to save me.

I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away

Remember Me; Chapter 20/Epilogue

Chapter 20

Epilogue

12 years later….

EPOV

Today was my birthday. If life hadn't had a change of plans, I would have been forty two years old today. Bella would have been thirty years old. Oh how time flies. You would think that there would be some type of distinction with the way time moves, but I guess after been a vampire for nearly 20 years, it was something you got used to. Time was just a breeze in the past with no looking back. These past twelve years t had not only changed my life, but others as well.

Looking out in the window, I thought about that fateful day. I admit I only did it for my own selfish reasons, but I have yet to feel any remorse for it. A lot had to change, but wasn't that what life was supposed to be about? The changes that either break or make you.

I looked out the window and got my answer.

BPOV

It's been twelve years since that day and like before, it was hard for me to regain any control over my memories. What I did have before was now lost and only haziness was left. It was like I woke up with nothing. I couldn't even remember my own name. Edward always told me that the memories that were most important to you stayed with you no matter what and he was right. I didn't remember my friends, school, or even the accident that took away my parents.

What I do remember was the intense burning sensation racking its way through my body. I felt like I was dying despite the notion that I thought I was dead, despite being only unconscious.

When I first awoke, I distinctly remember the clarity of Edward's face only mere inches away from mine. I saw the flawless porcelain skin of his face and ran my hand alongside his jaw. He wasn't cold as I once remembered, but warm as if he were any other human. His molten topaz eyes were even more golden; small flecks of green speckled in the irises. My memory was so vivid of him that I knew I never wanted to let it go. I knew things were different and that I was different. I got my concerns validated when I looked around the room.

Everyone was huddled behind him with cautious, but reserved looks upon their faces. Though I couldn't remember distinctly who they were, I can tell they were all very protective of him .They were all looking at me like I was about to make a break for it, but I certainly didn't want to. An unknown force pulled me to all of them and even though I couldn't remember them specifically, I knew that I never wanted to let go.

Ever since Edward changed me, I admit it hasn't been all peaches and cream. We of course had to leave and I had to adapt to a new world full of many problems and possibilities, but also an eternity of love, family, and hope.

Sitting back on my knees, I looked at all the small white flurries around me. It was only June, but Alaska still reared its ugly haunches with snow. To a normal human they would have frozen their buts off my now, but it felt like nothing out of the usual to me. It was our fifth year here and it felt like home. I could even hear Alice was yapping away about some sale one of her favorite stores was having to Jasper and Carlisle a few miles away. Esme was upstairs remolding a wall Emmett had broken earlier and Rose was downstairs in the garage restoring a car. I didn't know where Edward was, but I knew he was close by; his scent lingering potently in the air. I was happy that they were back to their usual routines, but sometimes it became too much for me to handle and I had to break away.

I would come to this small field; very reminiscent of the one back in Forks and would come out here to just sit and think.

It was hard for me to concentrate. I had to relearn everything and start from scratch. Every now and then I would get a brief flash of a lost memory and I would try my hardest just to hold onto it. I would get frustrated when I couldn't remember what happened, but they all reassured me that it was going to be okay and it was. I would be doing the simplest task and would quickly lose focus on what I was doing once I got a brief glimpse of a memory. Because of that, I almost nearly burnt the house down, lighting the pilot light to the hot water heater. The memories I did have were very vivid, almost as if I were reliving that very moment again. Memories of my first hunt, glimpse in a mirror and even beating Emmett in an arm wrestling match. I couldn't help but remember those times.

I came to terms with the fact that I was never going to remember the things I wanted to and that my brain was never going to work right. The first couple of years were rough, but I somehow managed to make it through it all. With each year my memories became stronger.

I looked down at the small diamond encrusted ring on my left hand and smiled. I remembered that too. Only two years into this life that special day happened. That distinct little memento also showed me that no matter what happened, happiness had a peculiar way of coming back to you.

I looked back out into the white lush and saw a long pale hand appear in the line of my view; a single golden band on the left ring finger glistened in the upcoming sun. I felt a smile spread across my face as I grabbed his hand and stood up.

"What are you doing out here?" Edward asked.

"Nothing really. Just a little daydreaming about the past." I answered, sighing as Edward wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Daydreaming?" He purred, rubbing his nose alongside my jaw.

"Mm huh." I mumbled, completely intoxicated by his touch. He pulled back. "Yeah, just a few memories I was reliving that's all." I groaned as he began kissing down my neck.

"Memories huh?" Edward grinned mischievously, and I soon found myself looking at his rear end as he began running through the forest. The air whooshed across my face and I could hear the laughter of my family behind us at his antics.

"Edward! What are you doing? I squealed as he bounded up the stairs and into our bedroom.

"Making new memories." He growled, tickling my sides.

"I didn't mean that kind of memory." I laughed, looking up into his sparkling eyes.

"Too bad." Edward cheered. "I love you Isabella Cullen." He smiled.

"I love you too Edward Cullen." I grinned knowing I was definitely going to remember those words.

"Life's an interesting journey. We all make our mark on the world; in some way or fashion. The real dreamers leave their work behind while the others leave their memories. Now the real question is, will you remember it or will you remember me?"- S.J.F.

The End

Remember Me: Chapter 19

Chapter 19

BPOV

I drifted in and out of consciousness and into a sea of darkness. It felt like I was dead, but I knew I wasn't in heaven and yet it didn't feel like hell. I couldn't see anything, not even my own body. I wondered if I was in some weird type of purgatory stuck in between, left to wander for the rest of eternity to wait for my own judgment. Maybe I was getting ahead of myself with that one, but I needed to get some type of grasp on reality before I started to lose my mind; of course if I haven't already.

I could still remember everything. The sickening screech of broken metal, the ruby red eyes that peered down at me just before everything went black.

Was I just unconscious? I wasn't dead, was I?

I could still think, although I couldn't move. I felt paralyzed. I couldn't see either. My mind was racing a thousand miles a minute as voices and thoughts drifted into my head. The darkness was like a tunnel and I couldn't seem to find a light at the end it. I seemed to watch my life float past me, like some crappy black and white movie. It was like I was there, but then I wasn't, watching as some innocent third person bystander.

Starting with my birth, my first five years of life, the crash that killed my parents, Jolie, school, the Cullen's, Edward. I saw it all, whether it felt like seconds or even years, I saw it all. Was this the same thing as seeing your life flash before your eyes?

Crap. Maybe I was dead. That leaves a nice afterthought.

Eerily enough, I found myself slightly calming at the thought. I was in no pain. I had my thoughts and that was enough. I obviously wasn't in hell or heaven or at least I thought I wasn't. Either way, I was just content to stay where I was, wherever that was.

EPOV

"Well?" I waited for Alice's response. She said nothing. I continued my pacing, a small line beginning to form onto Esme's hardwood floor from the friction as my pace quickened.

"Edward just sit down, you're not making anything better than it already is, okay. Please just stop." Rosalie growled at me. Grudgingly, I plopped down on the couch beside Alice who was staring off into space her eyes slightly glazed over.

"Anything?" I asked. She turned to look at me.

"Edward," she sighed. "I don't know, but it's not like we can go down there. She's too far down there and even with the compromise it's still too risky. Bella could be fine and maybe we're just worrying for nothing." Alice replied, rubbing her temples.

"So you mean, we just wait?" I sighed.

"We wait." I growled.

"Just relax Edward. You're not the only one who's worried okay? Besides, you're the one who agreed to let her go down there." Emmett huffed.

"So did you and that's before we knew the red head was on the loose." I growled back. He crouched back in his seat, a defensive look upon his face. My body tensed in agitation.

"Will the two of you relax? You two are no worse than a couple of five year olds fighting over a toy." Jasper reasoned.

"The wolves said they got this under control alright, and that they would call us immediately if a problem arose. You both are beginning to give me a headache and trust that's a nearly impossible thing to do, now relax." Jasper said sternly, walking over to Alice who had a pained look upon her face. She hated being blind to her visions, but I guess as she said earlier, we were just had to wait.

…

An hour passed before we got anything. When Alice looked over at me her eyes slightly glazed over and frightened, I didn't even wait for a confirmation; not even when the phone rang. I was out the door in seconds. I heard my family call out and run behind me, but I blocked them all out. I had to focus. I even smelled the revolting scent of dog alongside the perimeter of the forest as I neared closer to their line, but I didn't care. They could rip me to shreds later if they wanted; I had to help her first.

Running.

Running as fast as my legs and vampire speed could take me. There were no words flowing through my head; just the panted breaths of unnecessary intakes of air. There was no emotion either, not even any thoughts coming from my family.

I felt nothing as I pounded my feet hard against the ground; propelling myself forward with each and every stride.

I felt nothing as I watched my family and the wolves rip to shreds the red head as she tried to fight them off and I felt nothing as I came across the broken body of my love.

I had a decision to make and I knew I had to keep my emotions out of it. The monster inside of me debated between taking Bella's humanity and bringing her to this "world" by my own selfish purposes or saving her from the horror we call a "life" by letting her go.

The battle in my head seemed to compete for hours although it was only mere seconds. I tried to come up with every rationalization I had, but it always came to the same conclusion:

Was I doing this for myself or was I doing this for her?

My family huddled around me and their thoughts were screaming at me to make a decision. Alice was trying to see if she could get a vision of Bella, but came up with nothing. She was drifting away very quickly. This made me panic even more.

Emmett and Jasper both looked down at me with faces of sympathy and pain. They must have known the turmoil I must have been battling within myself. If it were Alice, Rosalie, or even Esme they would be down here in a heartbeat, no pun intended. This was their sister; Esme and Carlisle's daughter for all intent and purposes and the love of my existence. We all loved her and even if my love was to a different extent that bared the depths of both of our hearts, we all loved her.

Was I a monster to take away the only option she had left for herself, after everything she's been through? Was it enough for me to do this even if it was for my benefit?

Was damning her for all eternity the risk I wanted to take, if it meant seeing her smile, laugh, or even speak again? Bella's heartbeat was slowing and I could tell she was drifting quickly away and that time was almost up.

Closing my eyes and getting up to my feet, I made my choice.

BPOV

I laid there in silence. My imagination seemed to linger a bit, my thoughts drifting from school to homework, to a stupid paid program I last watched. I wondered if death was like this for everyone; to be left with nothing but your thoughts and memories, stuck there for all of eternity with nothing but the hope you wouldn't suffer from boredom.

I watched the story of my life and it was like a silent movie. I could see the picture, but never hear the actuals words, leaving me and my hazy memory to fill in the blanks. The sound was always a soft murmur; a gentle hum that left me wanting to know what was going on around me.

I first saw my birth, which I admit traumatized me a bit. My mom looked extremely exhausted and yet she had a contented smile on her face. Everyone was huddled around her with smiles upon their faces. I was passed around the small room from person to person until I was finally huddled in Edward's arms; wrapped securely in a little pink blanket, my little curly brown head the only thing revealed.

Edward's arms seemed to fit my little infant body perfectly and his posture showed no signs of nervousness or distress like the rest of my family. I must have let out a small sneeze, because I heard a soft noise and watched him smile down at me, his green eyes twinkling in amusement. It was kind of odd seeing him holding me like that; the love in his eyes peering through. Just think of the kind of love he would have showed me if hadn't died, but I guess fate just worked out that way.

Next, were my toddler years I presumed.

I saw my small three or four year old body running from Jasper and Emmett in our backyard, our mom and dad sitting on the patio in contented conversation. I saw the five of us eating dinner at the table, my small body sitting comfortably in my daddy's lap, while I played with my spaghetti, getting more of it in my hair and face than I actually did in my mouth.

I saw my mom and me preparing for bed. I watched as she gave me a warm bath, raking her gentle hands through my hair as she brushed the curly tangles. I saw her helping me into my pajamas and then reading me a story, quickly drifting off into slumber as she lulled me to sleep with a soft lullaby.

I wanted to cry, but the tears just wouldn't come. I ached for the reality, not the memory of what was. Everything suddenly turned fuzzy and statically before I could see things clearly.

Now I was about twelve or thirteen years old playing with Jolie in one of the foster home's run down playrooms.

My mind immediately wondered how I could skip such a large time frame, but then I remembered the accident. The accident that not only took my parents, my brothers, and their friends away from me, but the same accident that left nothing more than broken hearts and memories behind in its wake. I looked back at the scene that unfolded before me.

Jolie and I were spread across the dusty wood floor looking at the few magazines we managed to pull from Ms. O'Hara's room. We were both giggling, smiling at the beautiful faces of the models and their lavish homes. We tried to imagine what their lives were probably like; their cars, husbands, children, jobs, family; anything and everything that we hoped to one day have.

The scene quickly shifted and I saw that it was just before Jolie and I left for Forks; the light shining in our eyes. It seemed like such a long time ago when it really wasn't. Things were so much simpler back then and I wondered how everything got so complicated.

Oh yeah. They came into my world.

What I saw next was more recent. I was at school. Edward and I were lounging outside on one of the picnic tables. It was an overcast day and we were both laughing at something funny. My head was lying in his lap and Edward was looking down at me with so much love and admiration that my heart ached at the fact that I would never see him again. I would never again laugh at his comments, feel his cool arms around me, or look back up into his warm topaz colored eyes. I would never see any of them again because I was dead; dead and lost forever. Just when things were returning to normal, my idiocy went right along and killed me.

It was then that I felt the tears begin to well back into my eyes, and felt them slowly drift down my cheek.

While my mind relished on the thought of what was lost, my heart ached for what could have been. Edward and I would never be together. I would never go to college, get married, and have the 2.5 kids along with a white picket fence and dog that Jolie and I imagined we would one day have. I would never grow old and hopefully die warm in my bed.

I had never really basked in the thought of immortality and there was nothing I could do to worry about that notion now. If there ever was a moment that I had wished I was a vampire it would have been now. I would have done anything and I mean anything if it meant that I would get the chance to see his face.

Of course there were things I wanted to do with my life, but what was the point of enjoying life when there was no one to spend it with?

I continued my reverie and felt the tears well down my face as the images began to fade and darkness filled then air once more. I welcomed the darkness and silence that came along with it.

Hopefully I was going to find some form of peace that came along with the darkness. I started humming the lullaby my mom would sing to me as a little girl and I had made it to the third verse when I felt a sharp pain in my side.

I didn't know where it came from and I thought it was nothing, but that's when it started.

The burning; the intense molten feel of my insides on fire as I felt my body jerk and moan.

I let out a scream and even through the inferno, that's when I knew.

I was in hell.

Remember Me: Chapter 18

Chapter 18
BPOV
Minutes passed. Hours passed. Hours turned into days, and days turned into weeks, that eventually became months. It was hard to invoke some kind of security among myself when the ever leading sense of panic threatened to pull me under. It was hard trying to keep myself calm, even with the influence of Jasper's abilities. It had been six months. Six months of quiet and no leads to follow.
Everyone tried to tell me that everything was going to be okay, but I knew it wasn't. Things were never going to be the same. How could anyone go back to a sense of normalcy when there was always the looming threat of someone wanting to kill you?
Ever since the talk Edward and I had three months ago, he seemed to be fighting an internal battle with himself. He seemed to be a little distant from me as well. I would watch him from my peripheral vision and see him often staring out into space; a pained look upon his face. His relationship with Alice and Rose was no better. He intended to avoid Alice at all costs and he and Rose would get into arguments so loud, that their voices would echo through all three floors of the house. I never knew what their arguments were about, but if that was their way of trying to make things normal again, they were failing and failing miserably.
Graduation was quickly approaching and I honestly couldn't care. School was school. My grades were good and I was in the top five of my class, but none of that seemed to matter. I seem to question what was going to happen after all of this when I finally turned eighteen. Would I go to college? I had gotten numerous responses back from the colleges I applied to, and I was too afraid to even open them.
Where was I to go after all of this? I had discovered a part of life I could have never imagined; a family, someone to love and who loved me back. I wanted it all but at the same time I felt like I hadn't gotten the most out of life. The others had almost thirteen years to cope and experience things and in this single year alone I had to make so many decisions. It was enough to make anyone's head spin.
It was a rare, steaming hot and sunny day in Forks. Birds were chirping; the smell of green foliage and wildflowers permeated the air. A soft breeze blew the air making the sky a beautiful cerulean blue; no clouds in the sky. It could have been a picture from any acclaimed novel; it was just that beautiful.
But even I knew that beautiful days had their ugly sides.
…
Graduation. Best day of anyone's life right? I admit, I felt accomplished that I had finished a part of my life I didn't expect to, but it wasn't progress. After walking across the stage, I was greeted by my family and friends. Family; I loved that word. It was nice to have someone to come to after making a major accomplishment.
Edward had been the first to congratulate me; looking impeccable in his own gown; Alice and the others behind him with smiles all upon their faces. I tried to muster a smile, but knowing how I felt today, it might as well been a grimace.
"Congratulations little sis. What's wrong?" Jasper asked, as he wrapped his arms around me. I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know. I guess I'm a little overwhelmed." I answered honestly. I also intentionally forgot to mention that I felt like today was going to change everything.
"You sure?" He questioned. I nodded my head. After getting a few congrats from my family and friends, I was just about to ask what our plans were for later, when Angela came up behind me.
"Bella!" She squealed, hugging me.
"Hey Ang." I smiled at her.
"Can you believe that we just graduated? I'm so sad to see it all over." She whispered, a few tears beginning to well up in her eyes.
"I am too." I shrugged. Angela shook her head at me.
"So listen, I'm throwing a graduation bash in La Push down on First Beach, want to come?" she asked hopefulness in her eyes. I turned back towards my family, and saw that Alice had a glazed over look in her eyes. She threw me a wistful smile, and waved her hand at me for me to go. I wanted to ask if they wanted to attend, but soon realized that for two reasons that wasn't going to happen, because a: the Cullens weren't welcomed in La Push because of the werewolves and b: it was extremely sunny and that would mean risking exposure.
I luckily brought along my newly repaired truck along with me, so I wouldn't have to worry about getting a ride home. After heading outside and saying my goodbyes I saw that Edward was waiting for me to get into my truck. He had an odd look on his face and was just about to ask him what was wrong, but realized that I had left my yearbook inside. I told him I would be right back. He looked at me cautiously.
"I don't know about this love." Edward breathed, his sweet breath washing over my face making me momentarily forget my train of thought. He was sitting in his car; every inch of him covered by long sleeves to prevent the indirect rays of sunlight from hitting his skin. Only his eyes were visible and even those seemed to sparkle as he watched my every move.
"Go on ahead Edward. Alice would have said something is she had seen anything that would pose a threat to my safety." I reasoned. He still looked reluctant to let me go.
"Edward." I sighed, pressing my lips to his cool cheek. He sighed and closed his eyes.
"Okay, love. Please be careful, and if you need anything, please don't be hesitant to call. Even if you're bored and just want someone to talk to." Edward said. I rolled my eyes.
"Geez, am I really that lonely?" I asked amusedly, but his stare didn't even falter.
"Okay I will. Now go before someone sees my boyfriend glittering like a disco ball." He kissed my forehead
"Be safe, love." Edward whispered as he pulled out of the parking lot. I headed back to the auditorium and quickly retrieved my yearbook and headed back to my truck. The once sunny sky was beginning to cloud over with sickly looking grey clouds that seemed to swell with rain. I rolled my eyes as I got into my truck. That was definitely Forks for you; green, green, more green and to sum it all up, extremely bipolar weather.
On the drive down to La Push, my mind seemed to wander. It had been a while since I drove down this road, and I felt an odd sense of familiarity hit me as I got on the back road that led to First beach. A weird sense if déjà vu seemed to overwhelm my body, and suddenly breathing seemed to be a difficult task. Quietly pulling over onto the side of the road, I tried to even my breathing and when I finally did, I didn't even realize that I had been crying.
Sobs began to rack my body as I pressed my hands to my face. I didn't even know why I was crying. The only plausible reason I came up with was that it was all just pent up anxiety and tiredness. When I finally stop crying, I looked out the window to see that the sky was darker than it had been earlier. I let out a sigh. I wondered if the party was cancelled by now, but knowing them they would take the darkness as another incentive to have a bonfire.
I was just about to start my car when I saw a lone figure standing in the middle of the road. I couldn't see much, but from what I did see; it was a long blonde haired woman dressed in a soft white gown. She looked absolutely angelic and I wondered what she was doing standing in the middle of the road.
Red flags immediately went up in my head. Angelic or not, this person could be dangerous.
I should have passed her up, but I couldn't.
Something within me drew me to her, and as I slowly pulled up my car up beside her, I instantly regretted it.
Blonde suddenly turned into red, white into black, and from black into nothing.

Remember Me: Chapter 17

Chapter 17

BPOV

"So what about your parents?" I asked. Edward and I were up in his room on his bed, while the others were out trying to get 'situated'. In other words to make sure the wolves had handled everything and that I was safe. Alice had volunteered to stay with me, but Edward wasn't having any of it. Alice had insisted, but then Edward proceeded with this long monologue on how the only way he could ease his worries and mine, was to stay with me.

"My parents?" Edward responded confusedly.

"No the tooth fairy." I added sarcastically, but regretted it once I saw the solemn expression on his face.

"What do you what to know?" Edward mumbled quietly. I looked down at my fingers.

"Whatever you're willing to share." I answered.

"Um, my dad's still alive. I was named for him." Edward replied.

"So you're a junior." I added. He shook his head.

"Actually the third. The name's been in the family for as long as I could remember. Edward Anthony Masen the third." He continued a far off look in his eyes. I let him continue.

"I look just like him, except the eyes. Those belonged to my mother. He was a strict man, but loving. He gave my mother the world and worked hard for her too. He pinned after her for 7 years before he finally got the courage to ask her on a date." Edward said. "And when he finally did, she said that she had been waiting for him and what took him so long?" Edward laughed darkly.

"Well that explains why Alice is the way she is." I answered and he nodded his head.

"Alice looks just like her, with her raven colored hair and wide eyes."

"Tell me about her." I asked.

"She was just like you. You would have loved her. Although a few of our human memories fade, I can still remember her scent, her smile, the way she would tuck me in at night." He started with a half-smile, although it didn't reach his eyes.

"I'm surprised, that I haven't even thought about her in a while really." Edward said shaking his head. "She loved to paint, draw. He was very artistic. She loved music as well in fact that's how I learned to play the piano. She would sit with me for hours. She worked as a curator which was why she was often not a home and we spent our days with your family. Despite that, I did enjoy the time I did spend with her.

"Our "death" really took a toll on her. From what I was told, she didn't eat, sleep, go to work, anything. She blamed herself for not being around as much and she basically became a shell of her former self.

She just withered away; gave up, until there was nothing. She died three months later." Edward whispered. I grabbed his hand and gave it a soft squeeze. He offered me my favorite smile.

"Her death, really 'killed" my father. Not only did he lose his kids, but he lost my mother as well. He took up drinking and of course it messed up his liver. For a couple of years we would watch from the side. It hurt to see the pain we cause him and I vowed that I would never cause someone that amount of pain." His voice cracked.

"Alice, Rose, and I like to check on him every once in a while, but we try not to interfere. He seems to be a peace with everything, so we let him live his life." Edward sighed. I laid my head against his shoulder and ran my hand down his arm in what I hoped was a soothing gesture. He wrapped his arms around me and I let out a sigh of content.

"So now you know why I stayed with you, rather than let Alice stay. You mean too much to me and I couldn't "live" with myself knowing that I caused you some type of pain. A pain so vivid and traumatic that it envelops you until there's nothing. Even if it is all for my own selfish purposes." He breathed.

We sat there in silence, when Edward began to hum; a soft soothing tune that slowed my racing heart. I felt my eyelids began to drift close. For a moment, I forgot about my worries; my family, school, the fact that there were vampires out to get me. For that moment, we were just us, without any care in the world.

Boy was I wrong.

….

I woke up disoriented and alone in bed. I must have really fallen asleep. The once bright room was now dark, the light coming from the full moon that peered behind the curtains. My shoes were pulled off and I was gently bundled against Edward's pillow and comforter, his scent still lingering in the air. I was too comfortable to move and lay there contently until I felt the bed dip beside me. I looked up into the warm golden eyes of the man I loved.

"Hey love." Edward whispered. Even in the soft moonlight of the room, his skin seemed to glisten.

"Hi." I mumbled my voice hoarse and thick with sleep. I could only imagine how attractive I looked. I felt my face flush.

"Why are you blushing?" He asked and I wondered how he knew. Then I remembered. Him and his freaky vampire vision.

"Oh just how attractive I must look." I answered staring at the ceiling. I felt Edward move beside me and next thing I knew, I was settled onto his lap, my head in the crook of his neck. I breathed in his soothing scent and began playing with his fingers. I could feel every muscle on his body and could tell that his posture was rigid. Something was wrong.

"Tell me, please?" I whispered into the darkness. I heard him exhale a deep breath, although I knew it wasn't needed.

"Well the wolves handled everything." Edward answered vaguely. "And?" I pushed.

"And everything is just fine, except for the fact that one of the vampires got away. The red-head." Edward answered and I felt my heart began to beat erratically.

"I knew her." I whispered. She used to be my best friend." I replied and felt him nod against my head.

"I know... I could read her thoughts. She doesn't consider you a friend, but she seems to have this intense hatred towards you. She wants you dead." His voice broke off at the end.

"Well at least no one was hurt and everyone will be safe." I tried to joke, but it wasn't funny. Edward looked conflicted and seemed to be trying to find the right words to say. What felt like hours, was just mere minutes when he finally spoke.

"I swear Bella, on my life if I even have one that I won't let her get to you. You're too good for that and you don't deserve it. I couldn't bear the thought if something happened to you. I love you so much Bella, don't ever forget that." Edward said his voice breaking off on the end and I knew if he could, tears would be falling from his eyes. This made the panic in me even worse. I let out a small whimper and he held me tighter against his chest. I let out a shaky breath.

"I know." I answered, tears beginning to well up in my eyes. I tried to sober up the tears, but they just kept coming. Soon Edward began humming another soft melancholy tune that seemed to ease a few of my tears. I must have eventually cried myself to sleep because when I woke up, sunlight was peering through the windows and I was alone in bed. Again.

While I should have relished on the fact that Edward wasn't here, I couldn't seem to focus because all I could think about was that I had the intense feeling that something was coming and it wasn't good.

Remember Me: Chapter 16

Chapter 16

BPOV

A few months later…

If someone had told me, that vampires were real, I would have laughed in their faces. Now, I didn't even know if I wanted to laugh, scream, or cry. After our talk that day, we were all emotionally and physically drained, myself more than the others since apparently vampires couldn't get tired. I had sat there for what felt like hours, going through the various items in the box, trying to pick my mind of any references to the specific item I had held in my hands. I was still suffering from a mind block, but as Edward told me, I didn't need to worry. I would create new memories to replace the ones I had lost.

Edward. What was there to say about my overly protective vampire boyfriend? How does one even feel, when she finds out that the love of her life is a vampire? A vampire that constantly battles his thirst for your blood. Edward and I talked long and hard that night, our conversation varying from his connection with me, his life, and the constant inner battle he seemed to be fighting with himself. I felt our connection become stronger, but there was the matter of trust with him, that seemed to stop me. No matter how many times he had apologized, I still felt a small quiver in my heart. I guess I was trying to protect myself from getting hurt, which was useless, since I knew Edward would never do anything to harm me. He only wanted the best for me. Taking a chance with my heart, and head, I put my heartache aside, and brought myself into the world of vampires.

I felt like I had stepped into the twilight zone. Now that their secret was "out", they could act as themselves. That meant, appearing in front of me in a blur, nearly scaring the daylights out of me, Emmett and Jasper fighting that eventually led to a hole in the wall, to never sleeping or eating. That freaked me out more than anything did. It made me feel self-conscious, being the only one who ate or slept. I mean what did they even do with their time. They constantly reassured me, that it wasn't a problem, but how would they feel if they were the only human living in a house full of vampires?

With their secret being 'out' now, I was able to learn interesting tidbits about each of them. Esme loved gardening, Alice loved shopping (no surprise there), Rosalie loved marine biology, and Carlisle was an avid sports fan. When it came to Emmett and Jasper, I spent more of my time with them trying to catch up on the stuff that was missed for over the past twelve years. It felt so right being with them; instead of the awkward feeling I felt when I was first around them. I loved them as brothers already, but I soon realized that when we got together, we always seemed to end up in some kind of trouble.

…...Flashback (a few weeks prior)…

"Emmett, stop cheating!" Jasper growled, as I watched the two of them play Halo. Jasper was obviously beating Emmett and he wasn't having it. Edward and the others went out hunting for the weekend and were returning soon. I was left with Emmett and Jasper so that we could have our little "brother and sister time". I was sitting on the couch munching on a popsicle, watching the two of them amusedly, when I heard a loud crash. Even without blinking, I still managed to miss it. Emmett had thrown his game controller at the television mounted on the wall, causing it to shatter into thousands of little pieces.

"Why? Emmett, this is the third time you have done this. Esme is going to kill you." Jasper growled, as I continued to look at the remnants of the wall and television.

"My bad." Emmett shrugged, as if it wasn't the biggest problem in the world. "Besides, Alice probably saw this happening and ordered us a new one." he grinned, and as soon as he said this, the iphone Edward purchased me began to vibrate in my pocket. Pulling it out, I saw that Alice had sent me a text message.

-Not helping this time, you're all on ur own. :P Better hurry we'll be back in a couple of hours- A

I relayed the message, only for Emmett to let out a loud growl, throwing the other controller at two of Esme's prized vases, causing it too, to shatter against the floor.

"What is wrong with you?" Jasper screamed, and I burst out laughing. What wasn't wrong with him?

"Bells. Not helping here. We have to hurry, and replace these items before they get back." Emmett said, grabbing his keys to his jeep. I immediately ceased my laughter at the word "we". Jasper must have felt the same as I did, because he spoke up.

"What do you mean us? "We" didn't do anything "you" did." he pawned.

"Yeah, well… You were supposed to watch me and we can't leave Bella alone in the house." Emmett smirked, and I saw Jasper's head drop in defeat.

"It's almost one in the morning. What could possibly be open at this hour? Everything's closed." I asked, and I saw a smirk spread across Emmett's face.

"In Forks yes, in Seattle no." He grinned.

"You want us to go to Seattle? Have you lost your mind, wait don't answer that, because clearly you have." I exclaimed. He nodded his head.

"You're not bringing me into this." I huffed, crossing my arms over my chest. My phone vibrated again.

-Stop arguing Bella, you know you want to go. Wear a jacket or Edward will be angry-A

"Stupid psychic." I grumbled grabbing my jacket and sneakers. Once I had them both on, I turned back to Emmett and Jasper.

"Emmett, promise me we won't do anything illegal." I said.

"I promise." he smiled at me flashing his dimples.

"Jasper, promise me not to let Emmett do anything illegal." I stated.

"Why am I always watching out for Emmett? He's the older brother not me." he said.

"Well you're my older brother so promise." I smiled, flashing my own pair of dimples, something I learned from Emmett when I wanted to get my way.

"Fine" he huffed, walking out the door, Jasper and I trailing behind him, heading towards Emmett's jeep.

I had barely got inside and fastened my seatbelt, before Emmett took off, causing me to slam back into the back of my seat. I just prayed that we didn't end up a skid mark across the ground. Emmett and Jasper were indestructible, I wasn't. We were probably breaking numerous traffic laws but surprisingly we managed to make it to Seattle in an hour and a half's time without being pulled over.

Emmett managed to expertly move in between the few stray cars on the road, until we eventually pulled into the back way of an old furniture/electronic store called "Ferguson's".

No problem right, until I noticed that we were not in front of the store but in the back, where the inside of the store was visibly black and no one appeared to be inside. I instantly feared the worst.

"I thought you said we weren't doing anything illegal." I sighed, pinching the bridge of my nose, a habit I picked up from Edward.

"It isn't if you technically pay for it." He grinned, getting out of the car, Jasper and I getting out behind him. Emmett walked over to a window, and turned around quirking an eyebrow at me.

"Why do I get the feeling that I'm going to be the one who's going to be breaking in?" I sighed.

"Again, technically you're not breaking in, you're just opening the door for us." Emmett boomed. I turned to Jasper. I gave him a wtf look.

"Might as well, I mean. Alice would have told us if we were going to get in trouble." he shrugged.

"Now Bella, I'll lift you up and I want you to unlatch the lock." Emmett said. I groaned.

"Why me?" I moaned.

"You're smaller. My big hunky body can't fit through there." he grinned, putting me on his shoulders laughing.

"What about the alarm?" I asked. All I needed was to end up in jail for the night, I wouldn't hear the end of it.

"We'll disable it. Once you get inside you have thirty seconds before the alarm goes off. Jasper said. I wondered how they could disable it, but something told me that this wasn't their first time doing something like this. I looked through the window to see it was quite a good drop from the window to the floor. I prayed I didn't break an ankle or injure my head trying to get inside. I let out a distressed sigh. Jasper and Emmett both burst out into fits of laughter.

" If I hurt myself, I hope Edward smacks you in the head." I huffed. The two of them sobered up their laughter. We all knew how protective Edward was, when it came to my safety. I was surprised that he wasn't here by now considering our risky antics. I pulled up the latch of the window, and pulled myself up in halfway. I grabbed both sides of the wall for support and carefully maneuvered myself so that my head was sticking out the window and my feet dangled inside, so at least if I did fall ,I would land on my but or back.

Taking a deep breath, I let go the sides of the wall, and let myself drop, landing hard on my back. I felt the wind get knocked out of me and I sat there momentarily dazed.

"Bella the door!" Emmett boomed. Quickly shuffling to my feet, I felt a sharp pain shoot through my lower back area. That was definitely going to leave a bruise. I shuffled my feet and unlocked the door, Emmett nearly knocking me over, as he disarmed the alarm with three seconds to spare.

I rubbed my lower back area, which still continued to throb as I watched the two of them run around.

"Jasper, you get the vase, I'll get the television. Bella you just stay here and watch the door okay." Emmett said, and then they were off. Two blurs moving manically throughout the store. It was a huge open space with furniture and all sorts of electronics lined against the walls. I struggled to keep up with their movements and failed miserably. It must have been a few minutes later, I became bored until they were both in front of me, scaring me to death, causing me to let out a small high-pitched scream.

"Stop doing that." I moaned, pressing my hand to my chest. I looked at the two of them to see Emmett with a huge television box in his hand, and Jasper beside him holding two vases. They both held it so easily, as where I would have probably dropped to the floor by now.

"Bella go in my back pocket and pull out my wallet." Emmett said. I did as he said and grabbed it. I opened it to see it stuffed to the max with hundred bills.

"Whoa! You guys weren't lying when you said you were loaded." I breathed, astonished.

"Grab about three thousand." Emmett said, and I almost choked on my spit.

"Seriously?" I gaped, he nodded his head.

"Everything plus tax and shipping fees. It would be the same if we would have just done it online or in person." Jasper shrugged. I counted out thirty hundred bills, and put Emmett's wallet in my pocket.

"Go leave it on the front counter." Emmett said, and I ran over and left it there, leaving a small IOU note. I hit the code on the alarm system and we hurried out, closing the door behind us. Emmett put the television in the back of his jeep. Each vase had a box of its own and couldn't fit in the trunk leaving, Jasper and I to harbor one on our laps. To Jasper it wouldn't have been a problem, but my legs were beginning to fall asleep.

Emmett drove even faster than before, the blur of green outside my window, beginning to make me feel nauseous. We made it home in record time, only to find the others already there. A furious Esme, and panicked Edward stood at the door waiting for us.

I didn't even get a chance to blink ,before Edward was pulling me out of the car and into his arms. I breathed in his soothing scent and sighed as he pressed a kiss to my forehead. I rested my head against his chest and I looked over to see a fuming Esme hollering at Emmett. Jasper was now beside us Alice perched at his side.

"So Alice, what happened to a couple of hours?" I asked, my voice slightly muffled from being pressed against Edward's chest.

"Decided to come home a little early. So breaking and entering Bella?" she quirked an eyebrow at me. I felt myself blush, and pressed my face harder into his chest, my body shaking as Edward's chest shook with laughter.

"Blame Emmett." I grumbled, as we continued to watch Esme holler at Emmett for a whole twenty minutes. Let's just say it's rather amusing to watch a huge burly guy like Emmett get reprimanded by sweet little Esme.

…..

When I wasn't getting in trouble with the others, I tried to spend some of it with Jacob, much to Edward's dismay. Things between us were strained at first, but we somewhat came to a compromise. Jacob still hated the fact that I was in love with a bloodsucker (his words not mine) than him. True, that although I loved Jacob, it was more of a brotherly type affection than romantic. The other wolves still didn't care for me being there, but as long as Jake was there, I was fine. Our relationship even changed some of the conditions of the treaty. Since I was apparently, a quarter of a vampire ( from the stupid scar on my neck) but mostly human, if something were to happen to me and I had to become changed, the Cullen's wouldn't violate the treaty although we would have to leave as soon as possible.

*…RM….*

Jake and I were sitting outside his house on the back steps talking for what felt like hours. This was what I like the most about him. Talking just came easy with no awkward silences. Our conversations always flowed very easily, but lately I found myself becoming distracted.

It was also still hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that he was a werewolf. I mean how many mythical creatures were there in our world. Vampires, werewolves, what else? I knew there were bad vampires out there with blood red eyes, but were there bad werewolves as well?

Edward hated me being over here. We all knew Alice couldn't see me and that alone had them constantly on edge. Especially Edward who would anxiously wait for me at the boundary line. He would wrap me in his arms and hold me there for a few minutes checking my body to make sure I was still intact. I thought it was pretty much pointless but I would never let him know that.

They were all scared about me being alone with the wolves as well. The threat of their instability always lingered but I had yet to actually see them phase before my eyes. I was only allowed here during the day as they were all scared of letting me stay here overnight. Most of my time was spent with Jacob or even Harry who told me a few stories of him and my dad when they were boys. A part of me felt connected to La Push and I honestly didn't know what all the worry was about. I was brought out of my mental reverie by Jacob calling my name.

"Bells?" Jake called.

"Hmm?" I replied, turning to face him.

"You okay?" he asked.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I questioned.

"Well I've been asking you the same question for the past five minutes and you've still haven't answered me." Jake chuckled.

"Sorry," I said sheepishly. "I got distracted." I answered honestly.

"Am I boring you?" Jacob asked and I shook my head.

"Nope, I don't know why I can't seem to focus." I lied.

"You're thinking about him aren't you?" he asked sadly and I looked down at my hands and began fingering the cuff of my sweater. That was all the answer he needed.

"Bella." Jake sighed and I shook my head. I was tired of the lectures from Jake on why he was more suitable for me. You can't help who you fall in love with and sadly on Jake's part, it wasn't him.

"Please don't." I replied, trying to change the subject. "How about you show me that Rabbit of yours, you've been working on? The way you've talking, I'm very anxious to see it." I quickly said hoping he would take the bait. Luckily he did and I was rewarded with a smile. He helped me off the steps and with his very much appreciated enthusiasm, we headed towards the garage.

…..

"Bella, stop touching that." Jacob huffed, although he had a smile on his face. He continued working on his bike, when I tried to grab a screwdriver just to annoy him. He caught me and smacked my hand away.

"Bella." He whined, as I tried to grab for the toolbox again. He was just about to smack my hand again when Sam came charging into the room. He was dressed only in a pair of cutoffs his feet bare. His voice was tense and his face was void of any emotion.

Jacob immediately got to his feet.

"Sam what is it?" Jacob asked.

"We have visitors, and not of the welcoming kind." Sam breathed. I felt my stomach quench. Visitors of the unwelcoming kind. My heart began to rapidly beat in my chest. Sam and Jake shared a look, as if they were speaking without words. Sam ran out the door, running as if he was walking on hot fiery coals.

"Bella it's best if you leave now. Harry has already called the Cullens and will meet you at the boundary line. " Jacob said in a cold, not sounding at all like my friendly buddy.

"Wait, what's going on?" I asked confusedly.

"No questions." Jacobs said pulling off his shirt and shoes.

"But," I started."

"No buts, go" He all but screamed at me, running out the door. I stood there confused and was about to go look for him when Seth popped up at my side.

"Seth, what's go on?" I breathed, but he wouldn't answer me., He just swept me in his arms and began walking. I was surprised by his strength considering he was almost 4 years younger than me and was about an inch or two taller than me.

"Seth, put me down this instance. Tell me what's going on." I demanded.

"We have to go Bella." He said and he stopped for a moment almost like he was having a silent conversation with himself. I took the time to look over his shoulder to see the wolves lined up, a group of eight to twelve figures standing in the middle of the field. I figured they were vampires because even from this distance I could see their blood red eyes. Fear spread throughout my body. Edward told me about the vampires with the red eyes. They were much stronger than vampires who did drink animal blood. Their strength was compared to those of a newborn.

I couldn't see much, but I saw a shock of red hair that seemed all too familiar. Suddenly it was like in slow motion, in one of those sappy romantic movies. Time seems to slow down and I was able to see everything in perfect clarity. The red head turned her head in my direction and her face was revealed to me. I let out a strangled gasp and felt my blood go cold. She gave me a wave and my eyes widened in horror. Time shot back to real frequency and Seth suddenly took off running, my hands holding on for dear life as he ran through the forest and he towards the treaty line.

I didn't even feel myself being handed over to Edward soothing arms, because I was frozen in fear. What I just saw made me fear not only for my friends, and for the first time in the past twelve years, myself as well.

Remember Me: Chapter 15

Chapter 15

BPOV

"I…I live in a house full of vampires." I whispered, as they all stared at me intently. They have to be kidding me. I know I am supposed to keep an open mind, but seriously. They wanted me to believe that they were actual vampires that vampires actually existed. I just stared at them, first at Emmett and Jasper who both stood so frigidly at the base of my bed. There was no doubt in my mind that they were the same people from the photo, the only difference were their eyes. How do a person's eyes change from blue to a golden color? My eyes then shifted next towards Alice's and Rosalie's. Both of their beautiful faces were etched in hesitation and fear. Esme and Carlisle were off in the corner of the room, whispering to each other I presumed although it was hard to distinguish what they were saying. I saved him for last. My eyes traveled from his tousled hair down to his golden eyes that seemed to fear looking into mine. I continued over his bold nose and angular jaw and wondered how a person could be so beautiful and yet love someone so plain?

That brought another thought to my mind. Hadn't I asked Edward if he was being truthful with me? He loved me, and in my heart, I knew he did, but why would he lie to me? A cacophony of thoughts plastered my mind, as I trying to comprehend everything Edward had just told me.

"H…how? I mean what's…" I struggled to find the right words, but Carlisle stopped me.

"Bella" he paused. "I know you have question, and I would happily answer them the best I can, but this isn't the place or time. When you're released tomorrow, we can discuss it then."

"I want to know now. " I asked, but he shook his head.

"I'm sorry but no. This place. You wouldn't understand." He said, and for some reason his words made me mad.

"I don't understand? This isn't the time or place. Let me get this straight. I've been lied to this whole time, and I can't even the privilege of being told the truth. I don't understand, you don't understand." I raged, rubbing my face with my freed hand."Bella, please calm down." Edward pleaded, and a moment I almost became lost in his golden eyes, but that was soon replaced by red.

"You want me to calm down? Out of all of you, you're the worst. It hurts me to even look at you right now. What happened to being truthful with me I thought you loved me?" My voice became softer.

"I do love you." He answered, and I felt my heart stutter in my chest.

"If you did, you wouldn't have lied." I whispered, restless.

"Bella," he said, and I could hear the pain etched in his voice.

"Please go. All of you. You want to talk tomorrow, fine, but I just want to be alone." I croaked as my eyes filled with tears.

"If that's what you want." Edward sighed, as he followed behind the others out the door. He paused in the doorway.

"Bella, I know this is hard, but even if you don't forgive me, I'll always love you." he smiled sadly, before closing the door behind him. I let the tears fall, as a few sobs erupted from my mouth. Why did all the bad things happen to me? I thought I was finally through with the heartache. Even the one person who I loved and trusted the most lied to me. A few more sobs fell from me, as a nurse sympathetically rubbed my arm. Soon my sobs, turned into moans, and then soft whimpers. I finally closed my eyes restless when I came to the realization that maybe I was destined to live in my own personal version of hell, alone.

EPOV

I was a monster. The others tried to tell me that I wasn't, but I disgusted myself. All I could see was the hurt look upon Bella's face. Her eyes had taken on a dark reddish brown hue, making them even more mesmerizing than before, but there were filled with hurt and pain and I had put it there. She only wanted me to be truthful and I had bluntly lied to her.

"Edward you have to stop all of this self hatred. It's not healthy." Jasper pondered.

"Since when is my health a concern? I have no health. Bella hates me." I growled, pacing back in forth.

"She doesn't hate you and you know it. She's hurt, that's all. You would feel the same way if you were in her position." Alice chirped.

"I know, Alice. I just can't take her being mad at me." I said, pinching the bridge of my nose.

"Well if it helps, she's mad at all of us." Alice said sheepishly moving her gaze when she saw my glare.

"Well, excuse me Mr. Grumpy pants. Just because you're down, doesn't mean you have to kill my high. I thought at least you would be happy that Bella's getting released today." Alice huffed, before turning around to go up the stairs. Bella was indeed, being released today. As by Alice's orders, none of us was allowed to pick her up. Esme being the only candidate that strangely hadn't pushed Bella over the edge. The doctors had gave her the all clear, remarkably surprised at the extent of her injuries, which was nothing. We were all in the living room and I could hear Alice counting down the minutes and seconds until they would both return home.

"There here." Alice said creepily, reminding me of the little girl from Poltergeist.

"Everyone listen. Bella has not made decision yet, on what she wants to believe. If we want this to go well, just answer whatever she asks, even if it's a little personal. Understood?" we all nodded our heads as Alice smiled happily. We then heard the front door open as Esme came in with a sheepish Bella behind her. She looked better, her face slightly flushed as she gave me a small smile.

BPOV

"Are you okay dear?" Esme asked for the millionth time. I know she was just concerned for me, but it was time to give it a rest.

"Yes." I sighed. "I'm fine." I replied looking out the window at the flashes of green as she drove. To be honest, I was anything but fine. I was panicking. My stomach was full of butterflies, and I constantly felt like was going to throw up. How would you feel if someone told you that they were vampires? Not good, I presume. After they had left the previous night before, I laid there staring up at the ceiling for what felt like hours. What was I to do now? I felt like I should just accept things as they came and hoped that I didn't end up self-destructing in the process. Esme had came over the earlier this morning with some fresh clothes for me to wear when I decided to take a shower in the makeshift bathroom. I admit it felt nice. I hated hospitals. They smelled like bleach and stale air and I wanted to get as far away as possible from this place. To me, hospitals seemed to represent death, and believe me, I think I had enough encounters with it to last me a lifetime. After showering, I dressed into the clothes that Esme had brought me. A pair of yoga pants, a soft grey sweater and a pair of slippers. Yes slippers, which were comfortable against my feet. Throwing my hair into a messy bun on the top of my head, I left the bathroom to see Esme perched on the end of the hospital bed with my belongings. She looked so heartbroken, and I felt my heart clench in my chest. It was hard to stay mad at her. We walked silently side by side, as she helped me into Carlisle's Mercedes. She had offered to stop by the diner and pick me something up to eat, but my stomach couldn't bear it. We had just pulled up in front of the house, and I admit I was a little reluctant to get out. I didn't know what I was walking into, and that scared me more than anything. Esme must have saw the reluctance in my eyes, because she settled her hand against my mine.

"I know Bella that this is a lot. Nevertheless, we are good people, and would never hurt you. We only have your best interests at heart." She smiled, patting my hand as she got out. She was at my side in a flash, nearly scaring me to death. She must have heard the frantic pounding of my heart, because she mumbled a soft apology.

I trailed blinding behind her, as she opened the door. I could smell him. My skin began to prickle, and I felt goose bumps rises over my body. It was odd, knowing that my body was so in harmony with his. I continued to follow Esme when she stopped in the doorway to the living room, nearly crashing into her backside. I lifted my eyes from my feet, and immediately focused them on a pair of topaz ones, who was looking at me with conflicting emotions in his eyes. I had missed him. As much as I was angry at him for lying to me, I missed his touch, the way his lips felt against mine. I gave him a small smile.

"Are you ready to talk?" Carlisle asked, breaking my little reverie. I nodded my head and walked over to the lone armchair in the corner. I immediately raised my legs and brought them to my chest, resting my arms upon them. They were all watching me, and I felt like I was under scrutiny. I pushed a stray strand of hair, and focused my eyes back on Edward, although it was Carlisle who was spoke up.

"Where do you want us to start?" he asked.

"The beginning. I want to know it all." I whispered.

….

I listened intently as Carlisle spoke my eyes never leaving Edward's face. They all added their little tidbits of certain events, and it amazed me how much they had been through, even more so than myself. When they were all finished, I didn't move. I couldn't speak, or even come up with a coherent thought. My mind was too busy trying to process things. When my brain finally caught up, I tried to rationalize all the things that I had been told. Carlisle had changed them over twelve years ago; there is a treaty with the werewolves

( that apparently Jacob's apart of ) that prevents them from changing anybody on their grounds, Edward's a mind reader ( crap!), Alice could see the future based on the decisions people made, and Jasper could read people's emotions. There were laws that they must abide by, my dad had actually grew up in Forks when he was younger but left when he met my mom, it was a vampire that caused the accident that killed my parents, a vampire that caused my accident a few days ago, and then there was the fact that they were indeed vampires who drank blood, animal blood to be more precise. That was a lot to process. They also left many blank spots and a part of me wondered if they intended for it to be that way. They either wanted me to ask questions, or they wanted me to put the pieces together myself. I really hoped it was the first one, I didn't even know where to start."Just ask, Bella. We all know you have questions" Alice chirped, and I shifted my eyes to her.

"Okay, um… tell me about the whole vampire complex. I'm still confused about that part." I asked. Carlisle nodded his head.

"When one changes into a vampire, it's a long grueling process. It takes about three days, and you endure what Edward calls "your own little personal version of hell". It's excruciating burning sensation that eventually stops your heart from beating. Your body becomes frozen in place. We become what you call "beautiful". He laughed.

"You never age, and everything about you changes. Our body is impenetrable, even from bullets, our skin is as hard as diamonds, and only such could ever cause us that extent of damage. We become extremely fast, and all of our senses become amplified. We do not eat, nor have proper bodily functions such as going to the bathroom. We are like predators, not are, but it's in our nature for people to be drawn to us. When you awake, you have an immediate hunger for blood. As we told you, our kind only drinks animal blood, hence why our eyes have taken on a golden hue. But there are others of our kind who do not tolerate it. They only consume human blood, which is why their eyes stay a blood red. Then in some cases such as Edward, Alice, and Jasper. When a person changes they may gain a power. As we told you, Alice's can see the future based on a person's decisions, Jasper can read or affect a person's emotions, and Edward reads minds." he stated, and I cut him off.

"About that. Edward can you read my mind?" I asked surprisingly calm, although I was panicking inwardly.

"No for some strange reason your mind is silent to me." he said, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

"Thank god. If only he knew." I muttered and I heard him chuckle. I looked at him confusedly. I think you seem to forget that when we change, our senses are magnified. That includes hearing. How do you think we always knew where you were? Your heartbeat is a big giveaway." he grinned and I felt the blood rush into my cheeks.

"Well that explains how Alice how always found me then." I muttered, which brought another question to mind.

"So…" I muttered. "You guys told me that you knew about me right?" I asked, and they all nodded their heads again, confirming what they had told me earlier.

"We would glance in a few times every few months." Emmett added.

"Using Alice's visions." I stated rather than asked, but they all nodded their heads.

"We wanted to ensure that you were safe at all times." Edward said, and I almost laughed aloud at the word safe.

"Every time she checked, you were okay." Rosalie said.

"Well you need to stop depending on her visions then, because I was living in hell. Starving for days on end, because I gave my rations of food to other kids, or taking a beating almost daily for a few of them because they were so young. Try not being adopted, and watching the happy faces of the other kids as they got a new family that loved them. Or the feeling of not receiving any presents at Christmastime, or even waiting for someone to remember that it was your birthday. If that's what safe is, I think I rather be in danger." I whispered, a few tears welling up in my eyes. Their own eyes seemed to glisten, making the molten gold of their eyes seem to glimmer as the light hit their pupils

"God Bella, you don't know how many days, we had to resist ourselves from trying to find you. You must understand that at that time we were unstable. We only thirsted for blood, blood, and more blood. It wouldn't have been physically able for us to be around you." Jasper said. "Some of us struggled more than others, and none of us were ready yet. Even to this day it's a constant battle for us not to give in." he said, and I sympathized with him.

"I understand that, but you don't know how long, I would sit in the small quarters of my room wondering why me? Why did my family had to die and leave me to suffer? Why wouldn't someone adopt me? Why couldn't I be loved like the other kids?" I whispered, a few tears falling my eyes that I hastily wiped away. I could see Edward's fingers twitching and I knew he wanted nothing more than to comfort me.

"Bella, back then I barely understood my visions myself. They would come at random spurs some days, and the others nothing. I would have never let you suffered like that. I still struggle no at the few aspects of my visions today." Alice said, her bottom lip quivering.

"I know." I said, offering her a small smile. She ran over and gave me a hug her little body shaking with sobs. We rocked back a few minutes before she released me, a huge smile upon her face. She skipped back over towards her seat next to Jasper.

"Anymore questions?" Carlisle asked.

"A million more and then some." I smiled. I asked a few more pointless questions and they answered me happily.

"What about the treaty?" I asked. "You stated that it prevents you from changing anyone. Carlisle nodded his head. "Well if my dad grew up down here, and Billy knew about Emmett and Jasper wouldn't that be considered breaking the treaty?" I asked.

"No it didn't break the treaty. Billy didn't know about Emmett or Jasper. The picture you grabbed was from a year before the accident. You three were nowhere in this area, when he told him. He had came down at the news of Harry Clearwater's funeral." he said, and I nodded my head. That made sense.

"So Jacob's really a werewolf then?" I asked, and they nodded their head.

"And I want you to stay far away from him." Edward said, and I was a little taken a back.

"Why?" I wondered.

"He's unstable. Those wolves are unpredictable, and have a very high temper. They could phase at any given moment." he said harshly.

"That isn't far. He's one of my good friends, besides he was cool before, what makes him so different now that I know he's a werewolf?" I huffed.

"Belllla." He drew out my name. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes at him.

"Edward." I said, glaring back at him, until he laid back against the couch pinching the bridge of his nose.

"I'll be careful okay, but he's still my friend. If I can accept the fact that you're a vampire I can accept the fact that you're a vampire, than I can handle the fact that he's a werewolf." I said, and a smile broke out across his beautiful face.

"So you accept that I'm a vampire huh?" he smirked, and a small laugh fell from my mouth.

"Yes, I accept the fact that you are all vampires." I stated, and it fell silent. Esme then got up and brought back a huge box, and settled it in front of me. I looked down to see a huge box, full of old books, toys, and what appeared to be an old photo album.

"Is this all for me?" I asked in awe, as I grabbed what looked like a rattle.

"Yes it's all yours." She smiled."How…how did you get all of this?" I asked, tears welling up in my eyes once more."

"After the accident. We wanted to gather things for the others to help them remember, and we couldn't pass it by, knowing that one day we might see you again." she said, walked over to Carlisle.

"Let's give her a little privacy." She said, and everyone got up, although Edward seemed a little hesitant.

I don't know how long I sat there looking over the items and flipped through the photo album. There were so many photos of me and my family. From my birth bracelet, to a picture of me on a tricycle. I flipped through all the pages, stopping on the last one, which was a group shot of the others and I. We were all laughing and I was perched on Edwards's shoulder grinning. I saw that there were quite a few pages left, and I felt a little saddened knowing that those empty page represented missing moments of my life, I looked down to see a teardrop had fell down upon one of the empty pages, and I sighed and felt a cold hand on my shoulder. I looked up to see Edward standing beside me. He wiped away my tear tracks with the pads of his thumb and pressed a kiss to my temple. I wrapped my arms around and leaned into his chest.

"It's okay love. I'm glad those pages are blank." he said, and I pulled back.

"Why?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Because it means we get to make many more memories." He grinned, pressing another kiss to my forehead. I fell back into his touch with a small smile upon my face. We still weren't finished talking, and I surprisingly felt okay. And for once, I wasn't lying.

Remember Me: Chapter 14

Chapter 14

BPOV Dream Sequence…

"Come on Bells. Pass the potatoes." I turned my head to see Emmett gesturing for the bowl that was coincidently placed in my hands. He looks different, older A few wrinkles crinkle at the corner of his eyes. Blue. They were a beautiful shade of baby blue. What was he doing here?

"Are you okay there Bella?" A voice asks and I turn my head, to see my parents? My dad in particular looking at me astonished. He looks different. Much older. A few strands of grey threatening to show at the temples of his head. My mother is beside him. She too, looks different. Her once mid waist blonde hair is now cropped into a bob at her shoulders. The blue eyes that so closely happened to resemble Emmett bored into mine. Why are they here? There dead, right? I hear a few more hushed tones. I look around to see that it was not just the four of us.

Confusedly, I looked around the table to see Jasper, Rosalie, Edward and Alice alongside them, along with three other unfamiliar faces. Their faces held conflicting emotions, and I studied them closely as to why their eyes were not the golden molts, I had grown accustomed to. Jasper and Rosalie's eyes are a brilliant blue that mirror Emmett and my mother's, Alice's a gentle grey and Edward; his eyes the shade of green grass. Beside him a beautiful blonde-haired woman with the eyes of violets, holds his hand soothingly, a little blonde haired girl with green eyes perched on his lap. My heart starts to thunder in my chest. Rosalie held a little brown haired boy, who smiled a dimpled toothy grin at me. Who was he and why was he here? I must have been staring too long, because Rosalie quirks an eyebrow at me. In fact, they are all looking at me as if I were crazy.

"Are you okay Bella? Why are you staring at Hayden like that?" she asks."Who's Hayden?" I asked, my nose wrinkling in confusion.

"Funny Bella. How can you not recognize your own nephew?" she mocks, but I shake my head.

"Nephew? What nephew?" I ask, and she laughs but stops suddenly when she sees the seriousness on my face.

"Emmett and mine's son. Your nephew." she says slowly."How is that possible? I'm not related to either of you." I question.

"Knock it off Bella; you're starting to scare me." Jasper says."Knock what off? I am serious. I can't have a nephew if I not related to either of them." I say, and I take a sip of his water to clear the lump that is building in my throat.

"Dad. I think something's wrong with her." he said to my father."Dad? Why are you calling him dad, he's not your father." I ask, and everyone turns to look at me.

"How could you say such a thing? Apologize to your brother." my mom glares at me.

"Brother? My brothers are dead." I answer, and I hear gasps around the table.

"Stop with this nonsense, and I mean it." My father stands up.

"No, In fact you're dead. You and mom, died when I was five in a car accident. You died with my brothers. You can't be here." I said, looking around the table.

"Emmett and Jasper have been your brothers for as long as you have been on this planet for seventeen years." my mother says frightened. Hell, I think I'm beginning to scare myself. My family was dead. I didn't know what kind of sick joke, this was but it wasn't amusing anymore.

"Bella, whatever you are doing, it isn't funny anymore." Alice harshly says.

"I'm not doing anything. Who are you anyway" I quickly ask, at the woman beside Edward.

"You know my wife Karen, and our daughter Lizzy. In fact my mother was named for her." Edward answers. What! Wife? I thought he loved me and he has a kid.

"Wife? Daughter? But Esme is your mother." I shake my head. I don't believe it.

"Esme? Who is Esme? Elizabeth Masen is my mother." he responds.

"No, Esme and Carlisle Cullen are your parents." I glare. "And I though you said you loved me. How could you get married?" I asked, and he looked at me as if I had grown three heads.

"What. I don't love you like that. Karen and I have been married for over 5 years. I would never cheat on her." He says in disbelief. Tears are beginning to well in my eyes.

"In the meadow. You said, you...you loved me." I whispered, a few tears falling from my eyes.

"You're starting to scare me. You're delusional." he says.

"Delusional?" I holler, pounding my hands on the table. I knock over the glass vase, causing it to shatter to the ground.

"Calm down Bella." Jasper says standing up.

"You calm down. I'm delusional. You're the delusional one. You people are sick. Impersonating my dead family. My brothers and parents are dead. They are dead! I don't even know why I am here. I live with the Cullens." I scream. I must be dreaming. This had to be a nightmare right. I don't realize I'm clutching a wine glass, so hard that it nearly shatters in my grasp.

"Put the glass down Bella. It's okay. What you're saying is fictional. It was all a bad dream. Come back with us to reality." Jasper says slowly walking towards me, his hands raised.

"No it's not. My reality is with them. You are not real!" I scream, and I throw the glass at his head. It shatters into a million of pieces as it breaks against his head. What really surprises me is the fact that part of Jasper's face is missing. I nearly fall back into my chair."Ouch Bella. That really hurts. That wasn't nice/" he says, in an unfamiliar voice. It's deeper, huskier, almost taunting. He takes a step forward.

"Stay away from me." I scream, taking a few steps back.

"But we're your family." he grins, and I look at the others. They all look different. Dirty, Grimy. Their clothes are tattered, dried blood plastered to their faces. I cover my mouth with my hand.

"You want us dead Bella. Well here you go. Happy now?" Edward says, standing up. His eyes are completely blood red, not one speck of white in his eyes. A huge gash was at the temple of his head. He looked pale, an eerie grin plastered across his face. He reached out a hand at me, and I almost felt myself tempted to grab it but quickly stopped. He wasn't my Edward, it was someone else. I take another step backwards towards the door as they all get up and take a step towards me.

"No! Stay away. You all stay away from me." I screamed, and I wrenched open the door. It was nearly pitch black outside, but I didn't care. I just wanted to get away from them.

As I ran out the door. I heard Edward scream.

"You can't deny what's in front of you. You've seen it. I've seen it. You can't run away from it forever." His voice echoed behind me, as I continued to run.

JPOV

"So what's the prognosis?" I asked Carlisle, after I looked down at the photo Edward had just given me.

"That's the thing. Surprisingly she suffered no substantial injuries. She's just asleep." Carlisle answered.

"She's asleep, that's it?" I asked confusedly. "How is that even possible? Alice told me the car was totaled." I wondered. It was bad enough I had to deal with building emotions of my siblings, but trying to maintain my own sanity was even harder.

I had always been the quiet one, even when Bella was born. Emmett was the loud, rambunctious, I was the shy timid one, and then there was Bella. I like to thinks she inherited traits from the both of us. At first glance, she was very shy and quiet like me, but once she warms up to you, she became the life of the party.

Emmett would bond with her over the more playful things, while she would come to me to read or just sit. One of my fondest memories of Bella since my change was of Bella and I when she was three.

Flashback….. Mid-year 1995...

"Jazzy?" A timid voice asked. I looked up from my reading to see Bella standing beside my chair a book clutched tightly to her chest.

"Yes Bella?" I asked, dog-earing my page before closing it.

"Can you read to me?" she asked, and I smiled down at her. She was still learning how to read, and knew a few words, but she still liked to hear others read to her.

"Sure. I would love to. I figured Emmett was off with Rose somewhere, since it was silent and his room was right next door to Bella's. Just because she was, only three years old didn't mean she wasn't smart enough to know that when you saw Rose and Emmett enter a room, it was better to leave the vicinity.

I pulled her up onto my lap, and saw that she had chosen Corduroy. It was one of her favorite books, and I often read it to her. Anyone else would be annoyed, constantly reading the same thing repeatedly, but I would suffer through anything just to see my baby sister smile.

"I would love to." I smiled, and pulled her onto my lap. I read it to her, and looked down to see that she had fallen asleep against my chest. I had just laid her down on the couch when Emmett and Rosalie decided to make an appearance, the two of them with sheepish grins upon their faces.

"Have fun?" I smirked, looking at the dishelmed state of the two of them.

"Shut up." Emmett huffed, as he walked her to the door.

…..

If I wanted to remember anything before the change, it was that moment, well, including Alice. I have to admit, when I first woke up from my change my mind was constantly on blood. Human blood. Even to say that 12 years later that I still struggle, would be an understatement. I won't lie. Animal blood wasn't that bad, but it wasn't my cup of tea either. Human blood, would always taste better, I would always want it. It wasn't me. My record wasn't clean, but I didn't want to take away innocent lives, no matter what crimes they may have committed.

I often fought that battle with myself. Even more so than Edward. To never let the monster within me take control, and put my urges aside.

We had been changed for about a year and half when the memories started hitting me. The most of agonizing burning pain, the second of Alice. Nevertheless, the others included a little brown haired girl and me. I had memories of her and me reading together, and eating lunch. I had asked Emmett if he had any recollection of her, but he claimed that he was just confused as I was. Apparently, he had been having the same brief flashes of the same little girl. When we asked the others, they had all nodded their heads. All I could feel was bewilderment, through all of us, being that we all feigned it as ignorance. When the flashes became more rapidly, we all had no choice and decided to go see Carlisle, and ask him about our concerns.….

"Carlisle? We have some questions we would like to ask you." I started.

"Well, I …well we've been having some strange things happening to us." I started, not sure, how I was going to say it.

"What kind of strange things?" He said, sitting beside Esme.

"Remember you told us, that after we change we lose our memories, but the strongest ones we keep?" he nodded his head, so I continued.

"Lately we all have been having memories of a little brown haired girl." I said, and I watch the surprise ease onto both of their faces.

"It's strange really. A large part of me, feels like I know her, that I can't forget her, but I don't know anything about her at all. Does that make sense?" I wondered and he nodded his head.

"We were wondering when you were going to ask about her." Esme smiled sadly.

"She? What about her? You mean she's real?" Edward wondered.

"Yes. Her name is Bella." she said.

"That's such a beautiful name. Literally." Alice smiled.

"Is it. As you know that Emmett and Jasper are siblings." I nodded my head and looked over at Em. "As are Edward and Alice, and Rosalie as their cousin." she continued.

"What does that have to do with anything?" Emmett questioned."Let her finish." Edward huffed. I read his emotions. He felt confused, and I what I believe as awe for the little girl.

"She's Emmett and Jasper's six year old sister." Carlisle stated.

"We have a sister?" Emmett gasped in disbelief. I bet my face mirrored his.

"A sister?" I whispered. I felt Alice grab my hand, her eyes slightly glazed over, as is she were going to cry.

"Remember I told you about the accident, that you were all in." Carlisle asked.

"Yes the one that killed our parents. It was the reason you changed us." Emmett said.

"Well your sister was in that accident." He said his mouth in a hard line.

"Is...Is she dead?" I questioned wondering, why all of a sudden I felt a pang in my chest. Just because my heart didn't beat didn't mean I couldn't feel the pain that was starting to spread through my chest.

"No she isn't. She was the only one who survived the accident without any major injuries. Last time I checked, she was in perfect care." He said, and I could feel the relief in the room.

"So where is she?" Emmett wondered a little agitated. "Why isn't she here with us?"

"It wouldn't be safe." Esme added.

"Forget safe! The only remainder of our life is out there." Emmett huffed. Rose grabbed his hand.

"She's right. We still struggle to this day with our bloodlust. It's not safe for her and you know it." she said.

"You're right. I'm sorry Esme. It's not everyday that you hear that you have a sister, right Jas?" I nodded my head.

"I know dear, there's no need to apologize. Most of your memories have faded, but the stronger ones, keep close to your heart. They might hit you like a ton of bricks, but they're totally worth it. In fact I have something for you all." She said getting up. Esme soon returned with a large box, and settled it before us. Its contents included numerous photos, each of all of us and our families. We all grabbed some, relishing in the beauty of our forgotten memory of that day. One photo caught my eye in particular. It was of Emmett, Bella and I. The two of us on either side of us. She looked to be about three years old.

"Hey Em, come take a look at this." I gestured, as he came to stand beside me. It was definitely of us. It was hard not to see that she was a perfect combination of the two of us. She had Emmett's hair coloring and dimples, but my nose and freckles. It was still strange to think that we had a sister.

"It's odd isn't it?" I said, and Emmett just shook his head.

"It's just so much to comprehend." he shrugged. We turned back to others to see them all in awe of the photos they held, each a small fragment of our life beforehand. There even was a group shot of the six of us, Bella perched on Edward's shoulders. I didn't have to feel people's emotions to know how we all felt. It was all over our faces.

"Hey Carlisle?" I asked my voice slightly cracking.

"Yes son?" he answered.

"Do you think we'll ever see her again?" I asked, and he looked deep in thought for a few minutes.

"Honestly, I don't know." he said, and my face fell a bit.

"Do you think she'll remember us?" I wondered.

"I'm afraid I don't have an answer for that either. But son, if you keep her in your heart, whether she remembers you are not, you'll find your way to each other. Because contrary to belief, she's out there somewhere thinking about you, whether consciously or not, and that makes one hell of a difference." he grinned, and I felt a smile spread across my face.

….

It took about eleven years for us to find her, and I knew we were ready. Since that day, the memories would just hit us at random moments. I would find myself staggering and gasping for unnecessary breaths of air, knowing that I was missing essential moments of my sister's life. I may had not been loud or as boisterous as my brother when it came to find her, a part of me knew it would work out for the best, as Alice would tell me. Now that we were back in her life, I often wondered if we made the right choice by coming to Forks. When Alice had gotten that vision of her coming, to Washington. I was beyond ecstatic. Now I didn't know what to feel.

"Can we see her?" Edward asked, and Carlisle nodded his head.

"Yeah, she's probably settled into a room by now." He said, and we all followed behind him. After getting Bella's room number, we all stood outside her door hesitant to enter. But we had to face reality. Whether we liked it or not, she now knew and we had to deal with it.

BPOV

I continued to run, and suddenly I found myself in the meadow. How did I end up in the woods that quickly? I continued walking, just glad to be away from them. How dare they try and act like my dead family. I kept walking, when I heard a haggard voice.

"Isabella?" I turned my head, at the use of my formal name into the eyes of Grandma Swan. Although the last time I seen her before her death she looked the same. She had only kept me for about a year, but it was one of the best years of my life. She loved me more than her own life itself. I watched, as she walked in my direction. She looked a little younger, but her features remained the same. Warm brown eyes, a button nose, her long gray locks in her signature French twist, with a few tendrils falling down the sides of her face. She was dressed in a long white lace gown, and small smile spread across her face. She never looked more beautiful.

"Gram?" I whispered, tears beginning to swell in my eyes.

"My sweet girl." she smiled, before opening her arms. I eagerly ran into them, careful of her small frame.

"It's okay darlin, you can hold on a little tighter. I'm stronger than I've ever been. The big guy keeps care of me." she grinned, and I grabbed her closer, sobs racking through my body.

"I miss you so much. I feel so lost. I don't know what to believe anymore." I cried, as she rubbed my back soothingly.

"I miss you too, but don't you realize I've always been there." she cooed.

"Really?" she nodded her head."Now listen Bella. I want to ask you a question." she said, and I nodded into her chest.

"Do you believe that anything can exist in this world, and that everything happens for a reason?" she asked me, and I looked at her in confusion.

"What does that mean?" I wondered.

"Bella my dear. Do you believe that other things can inhabit this world?" she rephrased.

"You mean non-human?" I asked.

"Sort of, but keep that in mind. What am I?" she gestured to her self.

"My grandma?""Besides that." she smiled.

"Well you're dead, and if I'm taking the faith route here I would say that you're an angel." I answered and she smiled.

"Bingo. Now think, if angels could exist, that there might be other mythical beings." she said vaguely.

"Wait…What does that have to do with anything. I'm so confused and you're not making any sense here." I grumbled, and she laughed."

"I swear you get your stubbornness from your grandfather. But answer me this…" she paused.

"Why is it so hard to believe that Jasper and Emmett might just be your brothers?" she asked.

"Not you too Gram. What kind of sick joke is this? Can we stop playing "The let's torture Bella until there's nothing left" game? I don't know if I can take anymore of this." I breathed, as sobs racked my body once more.

"Bella, calm down. Life's a game. The choices you make either help you win or lose if you let it." she smiled, rubbing a few strands away from my face.

"I feel like I'm losing my mind." I said, rubbing my eyes.

"Aren't we all? Now listen babe, just follow your heart. Nothing is as it seems. Remember there's always a silver lining to every cloud." she smiled, standing up taking a few steps back.

"Even the rainy ones." she grinned, as she began to disappear.

"I love you Gram." I smiled, looking at her.

"Love you too my sweet girl." she smiled before fading into the sunshine.

…..

EMPOV

Waiting is such a tedious task. We had only been sitting here for the past thirty minutes and I was beginning to lose my mind.

"Will you relax?" Jasper sighed. "You're making me nervous." he said, looking at the sleeping form of Bella. It was way past visiting hours, but luckily, Carlisle was able to help us bypass that rule. She looked so peaceful. Even in sleep, it amazed me that Carlisle's theory may have been right. Her truck was totaled, yet she had came out virtually unscathed. From the faint light in the room, you could see the light glow from her skin. She was stronger than we thought, and I meant that literally and figuratively. Basically, all we had to do was wait for her to wake up. You would think that she would have awakened by now from my loud voice, Alice's constant blabbering, and Edward's paces across the floor, but no. She was out like a light.

It amazed me to see how far we had all come. We all still struggled with our own issues, but we had made our progress. The most coming from Edward. He had changed for the better. I watched for years as he roamed his existence in solitude, often bypassing any of our affections. I knew he loved Bella. A part of me wanted to pummel him for pursing my sister, but the other half said that he deserved this. For someone to love him and him to love someone. Between the five of us, Jasper and Edward had the most memories of Bella. I should be angry, that my own best friend has more memories of my baby sister than I did, but I wasn't. I just couldn't blame him. When he would retell us the memory or her he had, I could see the light in his eyes. He was constantly in awe of the little girl who had taken a hold of our lives. Edward wasn't in a dark place anymore, and somehow Bella became his light. I should be happy, but apart of me feared for him when she woke up. She would have questions. We didn't know if she would laugh and smile or run away screaming. Bella and Edward had made so much progress and to see him look so broken as he watched the love of his existence sleep, I felt my heart ache for him. What if she didn't accept us for who we are? What if she denies Edward, since he technically lied to her. I guess we had to wait and find out. But if she did decide that he wasn't worth it, I honestly didn't know if he would ever recover.

BPOV

After I watched my Gram leave. I laid down in the meadow and closed my eyes. Her words leaving a deep impression on me. Could there be more to our existence on earth. That if angels could exist, that maybe other mythical beings did to. I was starting to freak myself out a bit. I opened my eyes, to see that I wasn't in the meadow anymore. I was in a light orchid colored room, lying comfortably on a twin-sized bed. How did I get here? I wondered as I eased myself off the bed. I could hear soft music coming from the other side of the door, and wondered to myself why it sounded so familiar. I eased myself to the door and quietly opened it. I peered out my head to the side to see my father sitting in a chair by the fireplace strumming along on a yellow hardwood guitar. He played with the strings for a few minutes, until he relayed playing again. That's when he began singing, what I automatically knew was our song.

When I find myself in times of trouble

Mother Mary comes to me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

And in my hour of darkness

She is standing right in front of me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Lord knows I had many hours of darkness invading my life, where I would often cry myself to sleep. I tried to avoid reality, but it seemed it was trying to catch up with me. I had the biggest clue and it was right in front of me. Whether I wanted to believe it or not. Emmett and Jasper were connected to me in some strange way, in fact the same for Edward, Alice and Rosalie.

Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom

Let it be

And when the brokenhearted people

Living in the world agree

There will be an answer, let it be

For they may be parted

There is still a chance that they will see

There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be

Yeah, there will be an answer let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom

Let it be Let it be, let it be

Let it be, yeah, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom

Let it be

And when the night is cloudy

There is still a light that shines on me

Shine on until tomorrow, let it be

Well I sure wasn't solving anything, by staying in dreamland. I had questions and wanted answers. There was no way I could accomplish that here.

I wake up to the sound of music

Mother Mary comes to me

Speaking words of wisdom,let it be

Yeah, let it be, let it be

Let it be, yeah, let it be

There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, yeah, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom

Let it be

I hadn't realized, I had been crying and whispering the words alongside my father, as he strummed out the final few notes. He settled his guitar down, and opened his arms up to me. I walked over to him and laid my head against his chest.

"What do I do?" I whispered, as he rocked me back and forth.

"As the Fab 4 said, let it be. Even you said that, avoiding what was in front of you wasn't solving anything. You need to admit to yourself, that fiction may indeed be fact." He grinned his mustache, wiggling as he smiled at me.

"Why can't I just go with you and mom, where everything seems to make sense?" I pouted, Sometimes I thought that things would be so much easier if I were dead.

"Baby girl, you were never meant to be back with your mother and I. You have a purpose here, and Jasper and Emmett need you, they all need you. Its about time you realize that." he smiled sadly, as he picked up hightail once more.

"Its time?" I asked, and he nodded his head.

"Time to face your fears, and ask questions. Just know that everything works out for the best. I love you Bells." he smiled, as he began strumming out the notes to Let it Be once more.

"Love you too daddy." I grinned, as I waved at him, taking a few steps back.

"Oh Bella?" he called, and I looked at him.

"Yeah?" I responded.

"Good luck and wake up!" he grinned, and suddenly I wasn't looking into the warm chocolate eyes that mirrored mine, but those of molten gold that belonged to my Edward.

EPOV

How does it feel to know that everything you worked so hard for could be taken away from you in mere seconds? Horrible that's what. That had seem to be the statement that continued to rule over my 'life' every single day. Even suffering minor to no injuries, it killed me to see Bella lying in this hospital bed. Although she looked peaceful, I knew her mind was processing everything. I looked down at her beautiful face, to see her eyes moving beneath her lids. There was nothing more than I wished to see what went on in that pretty little head of hers.

"She's dreaming." I whispered, stroking a few strands from her face.

"No nightmares, I hope." Esme sadly smiled, and the others nodded their head.

"She's processing things alright, look at her face." Emmett said, pointing down at her face, where she had a small pucker between her eyebrows that only came when she was thinking too hard. I gently smoothed it out with my finger and she relaxed instantly. The joy of waiting. We waited over 11 years just to see her, and now is the moment we get really impatient, well except Alice who was trying her hardest to block me by reciting the U.S Constitution in German.

"Alice, why are you blocking me?" I asked her, and I saw panic flicker in her eyes, where she accidentally let it slip a part of her vision. It was of Bella waking up.

"Really, when?" I asked her, ecstatic that I would be able to see her warm brown eyes.

"Twenty minutes." She mumbled, looking at her fingers.

"And how long have you known?" I asked her, and she shifted in her seat.

"For about an hour and half." she rumbled, and I pinched the bridge of my nose in frustration. "Alice." I sighed, and we stared at one another for a few minutes.

"Hello! I hate it when you two have one of your freaky conversations. Freaky twins, there are other people here, you know. You could at least tell us what's going on." Emmett huffed.

"Fine, Bella's waking up in about 18 minutes. Now I would like to have a talk with a certain sister of mine." I answered, as Alice quietly followed behind me. Jasper looked at me cautiously but I just shook my head. She followed me as we both headed to the hospital's garden in the morning it was beautiful, but at night, it was a sight to behold. We sat down on one of the benches and sat in silence for a couple of minutes.

"How is she going to react when she wakes up?" I asked her. What I really wanted to ask was whether or not she would be mad at me.

"That I don't know. Remember my visions are based off the decisions people make. She doesn't know what to feel yet, but personally, if I were in her position I would be angry.

"Angry? Why angry?" I asked confused.

"How would you feel knowing that you've been lied to all your life? Denied every opportunity. Bella has been to hell and back, she trusts us and we lied to her and don't forget that hey 'We're vampires' aspect either. Sorry Edward, I don't know what kind of preconceived notion you have that Bella's going to be all happy when she wakes up, you have another thing coming. That's why I didn't tell you guys sooner. A part of her doesn't want to believe that Emmett and Jasper are her brothers yet alone that they're still alive, if they supposedly died over 12 years ago." she replied, and I nodded my head. She was right.

"You're right Al. I wouldn't blame her for being angry with us. I'm just scared you know. I don't know what I would do without her." I replied.

"We're all scared too, but it's a little easier now. Remember when you told us about the accident?" I nodded my head.

"I had never been more terrified for her, but if she made it through that she will make it through this." she smiled, patting my leg as she got up.

"You coming?" she asked, and I shook my head.

"I'll be there in a few. I need a few minutes to think." I replied, as she walked off. She had to bring up that dreaded day. Of all of us, I was the only one who had memory of that day, and it just killed me to retell it once more, but I knew I had to tell Bella what happened that. I had a few minutes left before she awoke and decided to head back to her room.

BPOV

Why was I so cold? I shivered, a bit and opened my eyes to see where the source of the cold was coming from. I looked over to see a flash of bronze colored hair and golden eyes staring up at me.

"Bella." he whispered.

"Edward." I croaked, looked past them to see all of them beside me with weary looks upon their faces. That's when it all came back to me. I had questions and I wanted answers.

Carlisle and Esme stepped forward to say something, but I raised my hand to stop them.

"Look," I croaked. "I know you're hiding something from me, so I suggest you tell me now. I saw that picture, and there's no way you could look the same as you did twelve years ago." I breathed.

"Bella," Jasper said.

"No. All I know is that I'm somewhat connected to you all more than I thought I was. I'm battling right now between being pissed off, curious, and somewhat hopeful. And trust you really want to hope it's the last two." I huffed. The all looked at each other, and I sighed.

"Someone say something." I pushed, and Edward stepped forward.

"What do you want me to start?" He asked, standing beside my bed.

"How about the beginning."

EPOV

"How about the beginning?" she asked, and I nodded my head.

"Before I start, I want you to keep an open mind with me, okay. Please don't ask any questions, until I'm finished, alright." she nodded her head.

"Just don't B.S me okay. I don't think I could handle anymore of that." she pleaded, her eyes full of worry.

"Okay. As you were involved in the accident, you were only five years old. Jasper, Alice, and I were 18 at the time, and Emmett and Rosalie were twenty. Alice and I were twins, and Rose was our cousin. Our parents were Elizabeth and Edward Masen Sr. Despite your belief Emmett and Jasper are your brothers." I started, and she opened her mouth to speak, but I stopped her.

"Until I finish okay? It'll all make sense okay." she nodded her head. "Your parents and us were all on our way back from three days of camping on the main road."

…..

Flashback…..

"Come on Eddie, it's your turn." Emmett cackled like a hyena. We were playing I spy for the past hour and a half now, despite it being nearly twilight and he was running us all crazy. We were returning from our camping trip, and we were all squeezed into the van. Chief was driving, Renee in the passenger seat. In the second row, I sat by the passenger side window, Bella to the left of me with Jasper and Alice. Emmett and Rose were in the back with our bags. We were all pretty tired, deciding to leave later that day, since it was so hot. We were all on the brink of exhaustion, except Emmett who was beginning to give me a headache and Bella, who was singing along with the cassette tape that belonged to that dreaded purple dinosaur. She was all smiles. Her ruffled curly locks into pigtails at the side of her face. She didn't seem to mind, considering she had slept through the first half of the ride.

"I love you, you love me." Emmett sang along.

"Shut it Emmett. I'm trying to sleep." Rose grumbled her eyes slightly drooping as she laid her head on his shoulder.

"About time. " Jasper grumbled, his own head rolling back against the headrest.

"Easy kids. We'll be home in no time." Chief smiled, as he grabbed Renee's hand.

I was just beginning to doze off, when I heard Charlie's voice.

"What is that? Ah!" He screamed, as the car swerved. I opened my eyes to see that a tall figure was in the middle of the road, and that Charlie had swerved. This caused us to flip over. My first thought was saving Bella, but I barely had a chance to, as our screams filled the car. Flip, after flip. I believed we rolled over at least nine times before we stopped. The car was flipped upside down and I was in so much pain. I felt the glass embed in to my skin, and I felt like I couldn't breathe. I couldn't help the moans that fell from my mouth as I tried to see if I could help Bella. Using my hand or what I thought was my hand and patted around to see if I could feel the lining of her car seat or anything but no. I couldn't find her. I knew I should have looking, but I was in so much pain. I tried to look around, but didn't have the strength to move. I saw Renee's lifeless hand, dangling against the console, almost as if she were thinking the same thing as I was. I knew Chief was dead, as his head dangled at an odd angle. The moans were getting louder.

"Alice….Jasper?" I coughed, tasting the blood that was beginning to pool in my mouth. I was so tired. The most I could see of Emmett and Rose was her blonde hair that was drenched in blood. I could smell the gasoline, and knew that we had a limited amount of time, but I couldn't make myself move. I was so cold, and I felt my eyelids slowly beginning to droop.

"So this is what it was like to die." I thought.

"Help was going to come. I just know it." I whispered, trying to convince myself. No one was on the road, who knew how long it might have taken for someone to come rescue us. I wanted to find you, to see if you were okay but I couldn't. I felt so disconnected from my body at that moment. Until then, I had just wanted to take a nap. A small nap to pass the time. I was almost in the brink of darkness when I heard a little girl's cry off in the distance, and somewhere in my heart, I knew it was you. You were crying, but you were alright. At that point I couldn't really control myself, and I started crying, call me a girl if you must. I was just so happy you were okay. My eyes were slowly drifting close, and the pain was lessening from body when I smelled it. A soft sweet scent and I felt the car being turned over. We were saved. I didn't understand what really happened net, but I felt myself being lifted. It was the sweet scent again. I tried opening my eyes to see who are what was picking me up, but I didn't have the energy. The pain in my body was slowly easing when I felt it. Pain. Pain so hot and excruciating that I believed people in hell had it better than I did. I was in flames, and I honestly did believe that I had gone to hell. It felt like each second the flame only got worse. The only thing that showed me that I wasn't dead was that, my heart was beating a mile a minute in my chest. I didn't even know that it could beat that fast. I could hear screams around me, but more so mine over the others. It felt like years, but slowly the flames slowly began to dissipate, the only burning coming from my heart that continued to pound in my chest, until it just stopped. At that point, I knew I was dead, but was surprised to see that I was still aware of my surroundings and could hear everything in perfect clarity. I could hear screams around me as if they were right by my ear, and wondered where it was all coming from. I opened my eyes, and almost wanted to close them at the sight. Who knew how many colors made up light. I saw everything, from the slight glimmer of light in the air to the dust particles that gently fell. I was so thirsty, and wanted a glass of water. I felt disoriented. How did I get here? Why couldn't I feel my heart beating? Hell, I couldn't even remember my name at the point. I heard the door creak open, and soon found myself crouching in the corner, my eyes shooting daggers as A tall blonde haired man approached me.

"Calm down Edward, it's okay. My name is Carlisle. I know you're confused, but everything will be alright." he told me. He had waited to the others had finally changed, and that was when he told me what we were. What I had become, what the others had become. We were one of the most feared creatures out there, and we had a hunger so strong, that I feared myself. The search for human blood, blood, and more blood. Getting it when we wanted no matter the consequence or whoever suffered. I didn't even want to look in the mirror at myself. When I did, I nearly regretted my decision. Everything about me had changed, and there was no Edward Masen anymore. I was Edward Cullen. Pale, cold, lost, and a vampire.

…..

"You find it so hard to believe that Emmett and Jasper are your brothers but they are. That day we all died, but we also got a second chance at life. I know you have questions, and I know you're probably angry but….." I trailed off, as Bella gaped at me wiping a few tears from her eyes, before breaking into a fit of laughter. We all looked at her like she was crazy."You have to be kidding me?" she laughed, but stopped when she saw our emotionless faces.

"You're serious?" she whispered, and I nodded my head. She flopped against the hospital bed. She stared into space for a few minutes and I was beginning to get a little worried.

"I…I live in a house full of vampires." she said in a dazed voice.