Remember Me: Chapter 12

Chapter 12

BPOV

"O.M.G aren't you excited for Jacob's party tomorrow?" Jessica gasped. I was surprised she was even talking to me and not someone else. Maybe she was just trying to get away from Lauren who was sending the two of us death glares. I wouldn't blame her either if I were in her position. When Angela told me that Lauren had become vicious, she had meant it. It was a warm sunny day, a rare occurrence in Forks. The Cullens had a funeral to go to today, and none of them were able to attend school today. Something about Carlisle's great, great-aunt or something. They had offered for me to tag along, but I politely declined. I think I had been surrounded with enough death to last a lifetime.

Since they weren't here today, and Angela was at a doctor's appointment, I had to suffer through Lauren's harsh glares, Mike and Tyler's staring and Jessica's incessant babbling. We were all outside sitting outside at one of the picnic tables trying to relish in the warmth before the oncoming clouds threatened to ruin it. I was nibbling on a piece of French bread while Jessica was spread across the table, looking like she was trying to get a tan. She had grown silent and I realized she was still waiting for an answer.

"Yeah, I'm ecstatic." I mocked, rolling my eyes as she continued.

"I know right. Like I still need to go shopping for the perfect outfit." she squealed. I shook my head. It really wasn't that serious. It was just a party.

"I need to pick something that's going to make Mike notice me." she sighed.

"How about actually going up to him and telling him that you like him." I suggested.

"I can't. What if he says "Let's just be friends?" Like I can't take the rejection. He may not like me that way." she pouted.

"Just stop complaining and go for it. You never know until you try." I sighed, fingering the bottle of water I purchased. She stared at me incredulously for a few minutes when the bell rang. She sighed and shoved her belongings in her backpack before hopping off the table and walking off. She stopped suddenly, and turned around.

"Hey Bella?" she called in a soft voice.

"Yeah Jess?" I said, throwing my bag over my shoulder.

"Before you offer advice to others, you should maybe listen to it yourself." she said, and turned around leaving me standing there gaping.

"Hey Bella." Edward called from his place on the floor. The two of us were sitting on the floor, while I did my Algebra homework and as he played with a strand of my hair. He was really distracting. I had been on the same problem for at least twenty minutes now. I was surprised he was even home when I returned. The others had decided to stay a little longer at the wake. I noticed his eyes were back to their usual topaz color, and his scent seemed more potent then usual.

"Yes Edward?" I said, not looking up from my book, knowing that if I did, I would become in his golden pools he calls his eyes.

"Come take a drive with me. I want to show you something." he smiled.

"I still have to finish my homework." I breathed. Bad move. I just ended up inhaling his tantalizing scent and felt myself becoming intoxicated by his presence.

"Please? Just for a little while." he begged, and I did the unthinkable. I looked into those eyes, and felt my brain turn to mush. I don't think I could even form a coherent sentence so I just nodded my head. The bastard just laughed.

"Hey that's not's fair. You can't just dazzle people to get what you want." I pouted.

"I dazzle you?" He quirked a bushy eyebrow at me laughing. I felt myself flush.

"Shut it." I huffed, as he helped me off the floor. We went downstairs, and he helped me into his Volvo. The car ride was silent, and for the first time I wasn't nervous about the awkward silence. What Jessica said earlier had me considering a lot of things. She was right. How could I give her advice, when I didn't listen to my own? I must have had an indecisive look upon my face, because Edward's voice broke my train of thought.

"What I would give to know what you're thinking." he sighed. I looked over to him to realize that we had stopped. I looked out my window to see we were surrounded by think brush of trees and we were on the old dirt road. I turned and gave Edward a confused look.

"Where are we?" I asked, and he grinned.

"A place." he smirked.

"Remember what I said earlier, about you all being axe murders chopping up and killing people?" he nodded his head."Well that isn't helping my suspicion." I grinned, as he opened up his door and got out. I think I blinked for a sec when I saw a blur and he was at my side opening the passenger door. Weird. I was starting to see things. Maybe I needed to get more sleep. He helped me out of the car and I stumbled into his arms.

"Easy there. Wouldn't want you to break anything." he said.

"Well it wouldn't be a first." I mumbled.

"We have to make a small hike before we get there. It's not that long." he told me.

"Hike!" I nearly screeched. "Edward I nearly fall flat on my face taking one step! Are you trying to kill me?" I gasped, slightly feeling guilty when I saw the pain looked upon his face.

"I would never do such thing. Look we don't have to do this. We can just go." he said, and turned around. I hurried and grabbed his arm.

"No! I want to. I'm sorry, please show me." I breathed. He searched my face for a few minutes when I saw the corner of his lip turn up, showing his signature crooked smile.

"Are you sure?" He asked, and I nodded my head. He stood there for a few minutes, a look of happiness upon his face when he approached me.

"Do you trust me?" he asked, and the words flew out faster then my brain could process.

"With my life." I whispered. A saw a flicker of emotion shift through his eyes before he grabbed my legs and pulled me bridal style into his arms.

"What are you doing?" I squealed, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"Well you're worried about falling, and I wouldn't want to do anything to ruin that pretty face of yours." he grinned, and I felt my face flush. He had called me pretty. I just sighed and rested my head against his shoulder closing my eyes as he walked, hopefully conspicuously inhaling his scent as we walked. It was only a short matter of time before he stopped walking.

"Bella, open your eyes." he whispered in my ear and I shivered. I opened my eyes as he settled me on my feet and gasped at the beauty that surrounded us.

It was an open field separated from the green shrubbery that surrounded us. Various assortments of wildflowers and grasses were spread about as a few birds flew overhead us in the cloudy sky.

"It's beautiful." I whispered in awe, looking at the beautiful scenery before me.

"Yes you are." Edward whispered, and I felt my body tingle from his words. I looked over to see that he had sat down and was lying on his back, staring up at the overcast sky. I walked over and lay down beside him, careful to live a sliver of space between us. It felt like static was permeating the air from the close proximity between us. We laid there in silence for a few minutes while he absentmindedly played with my fingers. His touch was killing me. The butterflies fluttering so badly in my stomach that I was afraid I was going to be sick. Taking a deep breath, I decided to listen to Jessica and take to heart my own advice.

"Edward?" I whispered.

"Yes love?" he responded, turning on his side to get a better look at me.

"What…what is this?" I stuttered.

"What is what?" he asked.

"This," I gestured between the two of us. "What's going on between the two of us?" I wondered and he let out a laugh. Well that wasn't what I expected. Tears begin to well in my eyes and he stopped laughing.

"Why are you crying love?" He said his voice etched with pain. I just shook my head.

"Look at me." he whispered. I shook at me. "Look at me." He said louder, grabbing my chin with his hand forcing me to look at him."I'm sorry I laughed at you. I never meant to hurt you. The only reason I laughed was because I thought I was making my intentions clear, but I guess I was doing a bad job of showing it." he sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose and I looked at him confusedly.

What did that mean? He must have seen the look of confusion upon my face because he continued.

"Bella I… I like you. I…love you." He said, and my heart stuttered in my chest."You…you love me?" I gasped, sitting up and my eyes instantly widening.

"I love you so much." he said, sitting up. I looked into his eyes to see the sincerity of his words but they were filled with warmth; love.

"How can you love me? I'm nothing. It doesn't make sense for you to love me." I asked him in disbelief."Silly Bella. You are something and let no one tell you otherwise. You are a beautiful, and amazing talented girl that I love. You're my best friend, and I don't know what I would do without you in my life. Tears were freely falling now at this point My chest ached and my heart was pounding furiously in my chest. He used the pads of his thumbs and gently brushed away a few of my tears."I want to try something." he breathed, his cool breath tickling my flushed face. He leaned closer. "Stay absolutely still." I froze, and closed my eyes. I could feel him near closer, until I knew his face was inches from mine. Slowly he brushed his lips against mine, and I felt my lips tingle at the touch. He brushed his lips against mine once more, and I felt myself respond gently pulling him closer; my hair tangled in his bronze locks. His tongue pressed against my lips for access and I eagerly let him in. Our tongues battled one another as we kissed until he pulled away. He pressed his forehead against mine, and I didn't realize I wasn't breathing until he grabbed my hand pressing a gentle kiss to my knuckles.

"Breathe Bella." He chuckled, and I let in a shaky breath. I felt intoxicated; high and Edward was my drug. We looked into each others eyes, as I looked down and smiled.

"So you really love me?" I whispered in awe. He didn't even have to answer me as he pressed his cool lips against mine once more.

"This party is epic!" Mike slurred, standing on the couch of Jacob's couch. I was down in La Push in honor of Jacob's 18th birthday. It was originally suppose to be a bonfire, but the tide had decided to come in putting that to an end. The Blacks lived in a nice place, a house maybe three sizes smaller than the Cullens and maybe two sizes larger than where Jolie and I had lived. Who knew Jacob came from money. Most of it I heard came from his father's settlement from the accident that killed his mother and paralyzed his father.

I had been here only for an hour and a half now and this place was packed. Mostly everyone from school was here except for a few freshmen. I had asked the others if they wanted to accompany me but they declined. Although I did see they all had pained expressions on their faces when I left. I told them I was only going for a couple of hours anyway. I really didn't want to stay long anyway. I was sitting on the couch sipping from a red cup bored out of my mind. Angela had to cancel at the last minute, when she had to baby-sit her twin 4 year old brothers who suddenly became sick with chicken pox. She apologized profusely, but I just shook my head. I told her I would see her Monday, and she gave me directions.

All I wanted to do was see Jacob to let him know I had been here and leave. It was hot, the air thick with sweat. Bodies were all over each other as music blasted from the speakers. It was strange to me that I hadn't even seen the birthday boy make an appearance at his own birthday party. Where they got kegs of alcohol was beyond me.

That didn't last long before Jacob stumbled down the stairs with a giggling Lauren behind him. I didn't even want to know

"Helloooo Bellurrr…"he slurred. He was wasted and Lauren didn't look too good either. She was swaying side to side, and nearly fell forward if it weren't for Jacob holding her up.

"I just wanted to tell you Happy Birthday." I said shuffling my feet.

"Thanks mannnnnn." he grinned. "Want one? There really gooooood!" he sang holding out a beer, I shook my head.

"I think I'm just going to go." I answered, but I really had to use the bathroom."Hey Jake. Where's the bathroom?" I questioned, and he pointed down the hall. With a quick wave I headed towards the hallway. The faster I got out of here the better.

I do wish Jacob would have mentioned which hallway. The direction he pointed to had like three. People were spilling out everywhere, and I was opening every door I could find and some way I made it into someone's bedroom and headed immediately for the bathroom. After relieving myself, I washed my hands, and looked around to see whose room I had barged into. From the ramp I saw, I realized this room belonged to Billy. His bedroom was simple and had a flat screen in the middle of the room. He had a few pictures scattered across his shelves and I passed over each of them. Some of a young Billy along a beautiful native American woman with long black hair, which I figured was his wife. Another beside it was of a grinning Billy holding a disgruntled baby Jacob in the hospital. That one made me smile. The next stopped me in my tracks. It was the same one as I had at home, when my father leaning against a truck talking to a wheel chair bound Billy. I looked at it closely to see that it was folded back. Grabbing it with a shaking hand I unfolded it, to reveal the rest of the picture. On the opposite side of the truck revealed a beautiful pregnant blonde woman that I recognized as my mother. She was beautiful and appeared to be only a few months shy of giving birth. I looked closer at the other tow figures beside her and stumbled back onto the floor.

I took in mouthfuls of air. Clutching the photo to my chest. My mind tried to protest. I flipped the picture over the date on the back reading June 1992. That would mean…. No… It didn't make sense.

Beside my grinning pregnant mother, was Emmett and Jasper.