Chapter 18
BPOV
Minutes passed. Hours passed. Hours turned into days, and days turned into weeks, that eventually became months. It was hard to invoke some kind of security among myself when the ever leading sense of panic threatened to pull me under. It was hard trying to keep myself calm, even with the influence of Jasper's abilities. It had been six months. Six months of quiet and no leads to follow.
Everyone tried to tell me that everything was going to be okay, but I knew it wasn't. Things were never going to be the same. How could anyone go back to a sense of normalcy when there was always the looming threat of someone wanting to kill you?
Ever since the talk Edward and I had three months ago, he seemed to be fighting an internal battle with himself. He seemed to be a little distant from me as well. I would watch him from my peripheral vision and see him often staring out into space; a pained look upon his face. His relationship with Alice and Rose was no better. He intended to avoid Alice at all costs and he and Rose would get into arguments so loud, that their voices would echo through all three floors of the house. I never knew what their arguments were about, but if that was their way of trying to make things normal again, they were failing and failing miserably.
Graduation was quickly approaching and I honestly couldn't care. School was school. My grades were good and I was in the top five of my class, but none of that seemed to matter. I seem to question what was going to happen after all of this when I finally turned eighteen. Would I go to college? I had gotten numerous responses back from the colleges I applied to, and I was too afraid to even open them.
Where was I to go after all of this? I had discovered a part of life I could have never imagined; a family, someone to love and who loved me back. I wanted it all but at the same time I felt like I hadn't gotten the most out of life. The others had almost thirteen years to cope and experience things and in this single year alone I had to make so many decisions. It was enough to make anyone's head spin.
It was a rare, steaming hot and sunny day in Forks. Birds were chirping; the smell of green foliage and wildflowers permeated the air. A soft breeze blew the air making the sky a beautiful cerulean blue; no clouds in the sky. It could have been a picture from any acclaimed novel; it was just that beautiful.
But even I knew that beautiful days had their ugly sides.
…
Graduation. Best day of anyone's life right? I admit, I felt accomplished that I had finished a part of my life I didn't expect to, but it wasn't progress. After walking across the stage, I was greeted by my family and friends. Family; I loved that word. It was nice to have someone to come to after making a major accomplishment.
Edward had been the first to congratulate me; looking impeccable in his own gown; Alice and the others behind him with smiles all upon their faces. I tried to muster a smile, but knowing how I felt today, it might as well been a grimace.
"Congratulations little sis. What's wrong?" Jasper asked, as he wrapped his arms around me. I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know. I guess I'm a little overwhelmed." I answered honestly. I also intentionally forgot to mention that I felt like today was going to change everything.
"You sure?" He questioned. I nodded my head. After getting a few congrats from my family and friends, I was just about to ask what our plans were for later, when Angela came up behind me.
"Bella!" She squealed, hugging me.
"Hey Ang." I smiled at her.
"Can you believe that we just graduated? I'm so sad to see it all over." She whispered, a few tears beginning to well up in her eyes.
"I am too." I shrugged. Angela shook her head at me.
"So listen, I'm throwing a graduation bash in La Push down on First Beach, want to come?" she asked hopefulness in her eyes. I turned back towards my family, and saw that Alice had a glazed over look in her eyes. She threw me a wistful smile, and waved her hand at me for me to go. I wanted to ask if they wanted to attend, but soon realized that for two reasons that wasn't going to happen, because a: the Cullens weren't welcomed in La Push because of the werewolves and b: it was extremely sunny and that would mean risking exposure.
I luckily brought along my newly repaired truck along with me, so I wouldn't have to worry about getting a ride home. After heading outside and saying my goodbyes I saw that Edward was waiting for me to get into my truck. He had an odd look on his face and was just about to ask him what was wrong, but realized that I had left my yearbook inside. I told him I would be right back. He looked at me cautiously.
"I don't know about this love." Edward breathed, his sweet breath washing over my face making me momentarily forget my train of thought. He was sitting in his car; every inch of him covered by long sleeves to prevent the indirect rays of sunlight from hitting his skin. Only his eyes were visible and even those seemed to sparkle as he watched my every move.
"Go on ahead Edward. Alice would have said something is she had seen anything that would pose a threat to my safety." I reasoned. He still looked reluctant to let me go.
"Edward." I sighed, pressing my lips to his cool cheek. He sighed and closed his eyes.
"Okay, love. Please be careful, and if you need anything, please don't be hesitant to call. Even if you're bored and just want someone to talk to." Edward said. I rolled my eyes.
"Geez, am I really that lonely?" I asked amusedly, but his stare didn't even falter.
"Okay I will. Now go before someone sees my boyfriend glittering like a disco ball." He kissed my forehead
"Be safe, love." Edward whispered as he pulled out of the parking lot. I headed back to the auditorium and quickly retrieved my yearbook and headed back to my truck. The once sunny sky was beginning to cloud over with sickly looking grey clouds that seemed to swell with rain. I rolled my eyes as I got into my truck. That was definitely Forks for you; green, green, more green and to sum it all up, extremely bipolar weather.
On the drive down to La Push, my mind seemed to wander. It had been a while since I drove down this road, and I felt an odd sense of familiarity hit me as I got on the back road that led to First beach. A weird sense if déjà vu seemed to overwhelm my body, and suddenly breathing seemed to be a difficult task. Quietly pulling over onto the side of the road, I tried to even my breathing and when I finally did, I didn't even realize that I had been crying.
Sobs began to rack my body as I pressed my hands to my face. I didn't even know why I was crying. The only plausible reason I came up with was that it was all just pent up anxiety and tiredness. When I finally stop crying, I looked out the window to see that the sky was darker than it had been earlier. I let out a sigh. I wondered if the party was cancelled by now, but knowing them they would take the darkness as another incentive to have a bonfire.
I was just about to start my car when I saw a lone figure standing in the middle of the road. I couldn't see much, but from what I did see; it was a long blonde haired woman dressed in a soft white gown. She looked absolutely angelic and I wondered what she was doing standing in the middle of the road.
Red flags immediately went up in my head. Angelic or not, this person could be dangerous.
I should have passed her up, but I couldn't.
Something within me drew me to her, and as I slowly pulled up my car up beside her, I instantly regretted it.
Blonde suddenly turned into red, white into black, and from black into nothing.
BPOV
Minutes passed. Hours passed. Hours turned into days, and days turned into weeks, that eventually became months. It was hard to invoke some kind of security among myself when the ever leading sense of panic threatened to pull me under. It was hard trying to keep myself calm, even with the influence of Jasper's abilities. It had been six months. Six months of quiet and no leads to follow.
Everyone tried to tell me that everything was going to be okay, but I knew it wasn't. Things were never going to be the same. How could anyone go back to a sense of normalcy when there was always the looming threat of someone wanting to kill you?
Ever since the talk Edward and I had three months ago, he seemed to be fighting an internal battle with himself. He seemed to be a little distant from me as well. I would watch him from my peripheral vision and see him often staring out into space; a pained look upon his face. His relationship with Alice and Rose was no better. He intended to avoid Alice at all costs and he and Rose would get into arguments so loud, that their voices would echo through all three floors of the house. I never knew what their arguments were about, but if that was their way of trying to make things normal again, they were failing and failing miserably.
Graduation was quickly approaching and I honestly couldn't care. School was school. My grades were good and I was in the top five of my class, but none of that seemed to matter. I seem to question what was going to happen after all of this when I finally turned eighteen. Would I go to college? I had gotten numerous responses back from the colleges I applied to, and I was too afraid to even open them.
Where was I to go after all of this? I had discovered a part of life I could have never imagined; a family, someone to love and who loved me back. I wanted it all but at the same time I felt like I hadn't gotten the most out of life. The others had almost thirteen years to cope and experience things and in this single year alone I had to make so many decisions. It was enough to make anyone's head spin.
It was a rare, steaming hot and sunny day in Forks. Birds were chirping; the smell of green foliage and wildflowers permeated the air. A soft breeze blew the air making the sky a beautiful cerulean blue; no clouds in the sky. It could have been a picture from any acclaimed novel; it was just that beautiful.
But even I knew that beautiful days had their ugly sides.
…
Graduation. Best day of anyone's life right? I admit, I felt accomplished that I had finished a part of my life I didn't expect to, but it wasn't progress. After walking across the stage, I was greeted by my family and friends. Family; I loved that word. It was nice to have someone to come to after making a major accomplishment.
Edward had been the first to congratulate me; looking impeccable in his own gown; Alice and the others behind him with smiles all upon their faces. I tried to muster a smile, but knowing how I felt today, it might as well been a grimace.
"Congratulations little sis. What's wrong?" Jasper asked, as he wrapped his arms around me. I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know. I guess I'm a little overwhelmed." I answered honestly. I also intentionally forgot to mention that I felt like today was going to change everything.
"You sure?" He questioned. I nodded my head. After getting a few congrats from my family and friends, I was just about to ask what our plans were for later, when Angela came up behind me.
"Bella!" She squealed, hugging me.
"Hey Ang." I smiled at her.
"Can you believe that we just graduated? I'm so sad to see it all over." She whispered, a few tears beginning to well up in her eyes.
"I am too." I shrugged. Angela shook her head at me.
"So listen, I'm throwing a graduation bash in La Push down on First Beach, want to come?" she asked hopefulness in her eyes. I turned back towards my family, and saw that Alice had a glazed over look in her eyes. She threw me a wistful smile, and waved her hand at me for me to go. I wanted to ask if they wanted to attend, but soon realized that for two reasons that wasn't going to happen, because a: the Cullens weren't welcomed in La Push because of the werewolves and b: it was extremely sunny and that would mean risking exposure.
I luckily brought along my newly repaired truck along with me, so I wouldn't have to worry about getting a ride home. After heading outside and saying my goodbyes I saw that Edward was waiting for me to get into my truck. He had an odd look on his face and was just about to ask him what was wrong, but realized that I had left my yearbook inside. I told him I would be right back. He looked at me cautiously.
"I don't know about this love." Edward breathed, his sweet breath washing over my face making me momentarily forget my train of thought. He was sitting in his car; every inch of him covered by long sleeves to prevent the indirect rays of sunlight from hitting his skin. Only his eyes were visible and even those seemed to sparkle as he watched my every move.
"Go on ahead Edward. Alice would have said something is she had seen anything that would pose a threat to my safety." I reasoned. He still looked reluctant to let me go.
"Edward." I sighed, pressing my lips to his cool cheek. He sighed and closed his eyes.
"Okay, love. Please be careful, and if you need anything, please don't be hesitant to call. Even if you're bored and just want someone to talk to." Edward said. I rolled my eyes.
"Geez, am I really that lonely?" I asked amusedly, but his stare didn't even falter.
"Okay I will. Now go before someone sees my boyfriend glittering like a disco ball." He kissed my forehead
"Be safe, love." Edward whispered as he pulled out of the parking lot. I headed back to the auditorium and quickly retrieved my yearbook and headed back to my truck. The once sunny sky was beginning to cloud over with sickly looking grey clouds that seemed to swell with rain. I rolled my eyes as I got into my truck. That was definitely Forks for you; green, green, more green and to sum it all up, extremely bipolar weather.
On the drive down to La Push, my mind seemed to wander. It had been a while since I drove down this road, and I felt an odd sense of familiarity hit me as I got on the back road that led to First beach. A weird sense if déjà vu seemed to overwhelm my body, and suddenly breathing seemed to be a difficult task. Quietly pulling over onto the side of the road, I tried to even my breathing and when I finally did, I didn't even realize that I had been crying.
Sobs began to rack my body as I pressed my hands to my face. I didn't even know why I was crying. The only plausible reason I came up with was that it was all just pent up anxiety and tiredness. When I finally stop crying, I looked out the window to see that the sky was darker than it had been earlier. I let out a sigh. I wondered if the party was cancelled by now, but knowing them they would take the darkness as another incentive to have a bonfire.
I was just about to start my car when I saw a lone figure standing in the middle of the road. I couldn't see much, but from what I did see; it was a long blonde haired woman dressed in a soft white gown. She looked absolutely angelic and I wondered what she was doing standing in the middle of the road.
Red flags immediately went up in my head. Angelic or not, this person could be dangerous.
I should have passed her up, but I couldn't.
Something within me drew me to her, and as I slowly pulled up my car up beside her, I instantly regretted it.
Blonde suddenly turned into red, white into black, and from black into nothing.
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